the other side

那些年，我们一起追的女孩

2011-11-28T22:27:00.003+08:00

大家都在谈的电影。有些人说，这部电影感动人心。也有些人说，这并没有想象的那么棒。

我觉得电影虽然不是迂回曲折或感人肺腑，但它却简单，真实地诉说了一群人的故事。也许因为这个故事是那么地平凡，所以才能打动那么多人的心吧。

这平凡的故事，勾起了埋在心里的好多回忆。那个时候的我们，心里想的事应该都不一样吧。那个时候的我们选择不说出，不面对，就让时间帮我们忘记。时间过了，但伤痕却留着。回不去了，只有遗憾留着。

有些事，错过了对的时机，就回不去了。就像有些人，不能成为情人，却可能成为最好的朋友。

女主角的一句话让我印象深刻： “人生本来就有很多事是徒劳无功的。”
也许，很多事最重要的不是结果而是过程。
也许，所有的“曾经”都是为了让你更珍惜你的“未来"。这么想，会不会比较快乐呢？

电影的结局不是 happy ending。但现实中，又有多少 happy ending 呢？
想想，我拥有什么，渴望什么，又失去过什么。

这，就是现实。

The story behind the piece of paper…

2011-09-19T20:52:00.002+08:00

Here's the story behind that piece of paper that caused yaya so much $$ and headache... Yaya once thought she should just give up trying...

If you have not heard the disaster with Car 206 in yaya’s first attempt, click here. Basically, yaya was so gan jiong that she couldn’t pull the handbrake while on the slope, striked kerb (x3) during parallel parking and directional change, and mounted kerb at vertical parking. Halleluyah…

The night before the second attempt, yaya had the 闲情逸致 to drink 花茶. Ended up yaya stayed awake for the whole night, woke up late on the 2^nd morning, took bus 81 (saw it as 51), only realized her mistake after the bus went on the expressway, hurriedly alighted, hopped on a taxi and arrived late for warm-up. During the test, yaya started the car, stepped on BRAKE (instead of accelerator) and wondered why the car didn’t move (= delay in moving off, 2 points). Yaya mounted kerb again while turning in the narrow road to do parallel parking. Sianz… Whatever happened after that was due to the “die liao heck care” attitude.

Yaya didn’t manage to book an earlier test (this one is 5 months after no. 2) because she happily went to Niagara Falls & NYC! Anyway, the third attempt was at a 430pm slot (warning! BUS LANE hours) cos yaya was pek chek when everytime she went to the CDC counter there’s only 830am or 430pm slots left! Although Yaya had LOTS of sleep the previous night after what happened in no. 2 and an almost perfect warm-up, she cui-ed during vertical parking cos the car refused to get into the lot and yaya’s correction c.m.i. Yaya politely asked to re-try the vertical parking and this time round it went in straight in one attempt! (Yay!) And the tester said “Sorry, you’ve exceeded the time limit.” (dotzzz.. WHY is that an immediate failure!?!) And even though Yaya had failed already, the tester brought her out and went a HUGE round outside. And cos the traffic conditions were so horrible at 5pm, yaya could not change lane and somemore kana horn-ed at by some cruel idiot. *sigh*

Luckily Yaya took the lesson from no. 3 and booked a test slot at the optimum time of 155pm this time round. But the storm came before she left the house for warm-up. So yaya mournfully walked out and decided to take a taxi (in case she is late cos of the rain). In the end the taxi took her a huge round (went all way to potong pasir and up expressway before going to paya lebar) and made her so freaked out she’s going to be late even after taking taxi! Luckily, she arrived on time. Guess what? It’s our old friend 206 again! This time round, 206 gave yaya a roll backwards on the slope (cos yaya didn’t make very good relations with the handbrake again) and the engine stalled when yaya was going to turn back into the driving centre! yaya’s legs must have turned jelly after such a “safe” test!

Ta-da!!! Yaya Finally PASSED! (with 2 demerit points only – for that rollback!)

Phew… Come to think of it… Yaya feels like a good driver… Just that she gets gan jiong once the tester is around. Testers should be more friendly, right?! WHY make yaya so scared of them every test? The tester who passed yaya gave her the results slip and shooed her away without talking to her! While yaya was totally freaking out (what if the tester gave me many many small small points) cos the tester DIDN’T say a word! Heng... no need for any more driving tests le... Hurray!

迷失

2011-07-15T22:22:00.004+08:00

人生，不可能永远一帆风顺。
我懂，但也往往会为了生命中的不如意感到气馁。

挫折、迷惘、失望、渴望，失去、后悔。。。
我累了。我已迷失了方向，不知该往哪走。

有时候，我好想变成一个自私的人。

有些事，是永远无法选择的。
有些洞，是永远无法填满的。
有些梦，是永远无法实现的，
有些错，是永远无法学乖的。
有些伤，是永远无法痊愈的。

The sweetest smile

2011-03-13T20:24:00.003+08:00

yaya bought a new toy - the C peel from someone on hwz.

Just about 25 hours after the collection, the seller smsed:
"By the way, you have the sweetest smile last night, i hope you don't mind if i tell you so, can't take it off my mind, sorry..."

OMG?! It was a mere 5 minute encounter! Creeps...

Luckily he is not the persistent type =P

I'm having fun with my toy otherwise. *winks*

PS: Beer + Champagne is a potent combination. Best not to try again.

Feelings from the past...

2011-03-09T00:35:00.001+08:00

或许是迟来的感慨，但心里还是放不下。

点点滴滴的回忆，不断地在我脑海里浮现。
快乐与悲伤仍记忆犹新。

时间，改变了一切。
但过去的感受与现在的心情交错着，让我傻傻分不清。

我心里的阴暗，也许才是最真实的。
就算一时忘了，那也不过是短暂的。

我到底在想什么？我想我快要疯了。

it's so complicated....

2011-02-06T22:31:00.002+08:00

I didn't meant to make any decisions so complicated, but sometimes it just becomes so.
I wish all questions are just yes and no. Answer it, and move on.
But somehow I find myself playing the "roti-prata" game (a phrase learnt from Vince when he referred to yj as the "roti-prata girl") - changing my mind every other day.
Why am I making my life so difficult?

When I was young, my dream was to "be able to just walk into a shop and buy what I like, without worrying where the money come from". Now I have the ability to do that, but I start to think "Can I afford to pay the bill next month?" or "Is this the best way to spend my money?" or "Should I buy A or B or C or D? Or wait till E comes?"

We are confronted with choices every day. Do they put you in a dilemma?
Sianz. I don't even know what I want to do with my life.

说不出的软弱

2011-01-09T21:19:00.002+08:00

沉浸在美丽的童话梦境
无法逃出最真实的曾经

不想期待却又抵挡不住
渴望坚强却仍软弱无助

现实里只存在无比空虚
梦境里就算虚无但丰富

未来没有虚幻也无曾经
现实与梦境经已分不清

another long period of absence

2010-12-20T23:15:00.000+08:00

I wanted to blog about my Taiwan and HK trips, but somehow the blogging never started. The HK photos are still "in the midst of uploading to FB". It's not easy to filter 2,800 photos from 2 cameras after all. Pei Shi and I really made full use of our digital cameras. =P

After many months of absence from blogging, my life is, sadly, very much the same as before. Tonight, after watching my daily dose of drama (currently Secret Garden in Korean), I finally gave my blog a little makeover and start to type the first entry after months of missing in action. There's just too much I want to grumble, but I guess those are too mundane and un-interesting. So, I shall tell the story of how I failed my TP test last week (sigh) to whoever has not heard it yet. The story goes like this...

1. Slope > handbrake refused to be released. yaya struggled (both hands) with the handbrake for 5 min while the tester looked on. When the handbrake finally went down, all confidence disappeared and the hands feel numb.
2. Directional change > Tester: your front wheel touched the kerb. yaya: no feeling at all.
3. Parallel Parking > Parked, pulled handbrake, struggled with handbrake for another min, banged kerb while moving out
4. Vertical Parking > Parked too close to the right, did not pull handbrake this time round, but as I turned right out of the lot, the rear right wheel gently mounted the kerb (that's a tick in the full circle)
5. Driving outside> Tester: your outside driving is ok. Practice more in circuit and come back and try again.

Yaya knew all was lost when she finally released the handbrake at the slope. I just didn't expect my circuit to be THAT bad. Sigh. I was probably too gan jiong or too suay. Now totally no mood to even book retest date. Haiz.

6. After test, the sore throat before the test developed into flu, then fever (with accompanying MC), and finally a cough.

Still recovering from No. 6 (physically) and No. 5 (emotionally).

烦！

2010-06-21T22:01:00.004+08:00

yaya always wanted to blog, but when I open the window, I just don't know what to say.
Maybe it's because I'm getting so old that I'm too sad to blog.
Maybe I'm too emo and I don't want to spread the emo feeling all over this blog.
There are just too many questions I'm firing at myself internally, and I'm not getting any answers.
There are just so many things I hate about myself and I can't resolve this internal conflict.

I'm vexed...
And There's No Way Out.

feeling lost...

2010-04-21T23:34:00.002+08:00

yaya can't help it but feel really empty at times...
I've lost motivation, and never had any direction.

I know life's unfair, and I'd accept it, cos I can't change how others' lives work out. I want to change mine, but I never got down to it and it didn't go the way I wanted it to.

Life goes on, whether someone enters your life or leaves from yours. I knew it all along, but I'm afraid to see it happening again, though it has happened again and again.

Knowing what I don't want to do but not knowing what I want to do is getting me nowhere. I don't know how to continue and I'm waiting for some heavenly intervention which may or may not happen.

I've lost patience and I'm starting to believe somethings will never happen. I'm getting scared... of things I cannot see or feel.

Life's never fair.

24 days more~~~

2010-04-19T21:23:00.003+08:00

yaya is counting down to the day I leave for Taiwan!
'cos there's nothing else to look forward to. (minus the goodies from online shopping I'm waiting for...)
I'm yearning for a day or two off work... and I'm so tempted to take leave! *argh*

YJ says my mood for the day ranges from "tired" to "very tired" to "super tired". I think it can summarized in just one word : "exhausted".

rumblings...

2010-04-14T00:39:00.002+08:00

This place is becoming largely dead... As with its owner... haha~

Not the latest I've discovered about myself... But I now know how lazy I can be.
Many weekends have passed (I gave up counting) since I told myself I should start to exercise.
My clothes are lying everywhere but in the wardrobe, and it's a challenge to find something to wear every day before I leave the house.
My Jap is growing rusty, though I did try to revise sometime 3 weeks ago (forgot most by now).
I'm really interested to learn (a) driving, (b) keyboard, (c) guitar. Maybe after I'm back from Taiwan.
The Taiwan trip is one month away, and the itinerary is still "in progress" of becoming complete. Argh...

Work's piling as if I've been on leave forever. Everyday I learn to do "magic" - I'm supposed to produce something that should have been done some 12 months ago. I really wish I'm on leave forever and ever. Mondays are the dreadest ever... The last Monday I survived... I was in office till 11pm with no dinner, no aircon in office, lack of sleep and lots of leftover work for Tues and probably the rest of the week. *sigh* Fridays have lost their charm, and Paydays are now no longer marked in my biological calendars. Sunday Nights come with servere disappointment and withdrawal symptons - I tend to refuse to sleep until well past midnight. Oops... Just realised that's what I'm doing right now.

Still recovering from the lack of sleep last night. Luckily tonight YJ pei wo go watch movie ("Date Night" is pretty funny... good for a relaxing Tuesday night out!). At least I had something to look forward to on a tired Tuesday~ haha.

What I learnt today? The world is small...

hiding from reality...

2010-02-01T23:11:00.003+08:00

I admit I've been real lazy... That explains why this space is almost dead... again. (lol)

I'm losing interest in too many things. Nothing seems meaningful anymore...
Sometimes I wish I can just be the irresponsible girl which I've been locking up deep inside myself.
Sometimes I wish I can stop dreaming and get back down to earth.
Sometimes I want to stake all my money (i hate gambling!) and get huge profits without deserving it.
Sometimes I really hate myself (why?).
Sometimes, I just want to hide in the black hole and never come out.

100 分

2009-11-07T11:34:00.002+08:00

“爸爸，你看！我拿到100分哦！”

小时候的我，曾兴致勃勃地跟爸妈炫耀无数个100分。
长大后，却发现，现实生活中，根本没有所谓的100分。

职场上，又有谁真的做到100分？又是谁有权力去评估每个人的实力与努力？
生活上，设么才是100分？有多开心、有多少钱、有多少人爱，才算100分？

小时候的100分，好像根本微不足道。

lalala~

2009-11-05T23:34:00.003+08:00

My dearest sister always asks me "Why are you watching brainless shows?"

Well... Why would I want to waste more of my brain cells after work? Brainless shows are, afterall, brainless enough to let me rest mentally. Even if it's 101 times of the same storyline, in 101 different settings and probably just 30 odd different faces... I will still get my much awaited dose of entertainment minus the headaches PLUS I get to forget about the work~ hee

work really drains me out everyday... i really miss jy & yj~ darlings come back quick... I MISS YOU GALS!

The baby just came and left as her temper gets worse nearing her bedtime... *kawaii*

sometimes being a baby is so 幸福!

baby loves the aircon too! *grinz*

i want to fly~~~

2009-10-28T22:24:00.002+08:00

Almost everyone is going USA!
Why am I stuck in this small island? *jealous*
我想飞，但我没有钱！
*cough cough*

depressed...

2009-10-22T21:19:00.000+08:00

I don't want to admit it, but that's how I'm feeling now. And it's mostly, if not totally, due to the four letter word starting with "W" and ending with "K". I'm even 90% certain that the recent 39.1 deg fever on Monday is the unconscious reaction to the depression... maybe THAT is why the cough is still not subsiding...

*cough cough*

i need some light... to see the future.

1 in 8,145,060

2009-10-05T22:11:00.002+08:00

yaya's dream: to become financially independent. [Financial independence is when you are able to live indefinitely without having to work actively for money.]

most probable & fastest way to reach that... Toto! But well.. what are the odds? 1 in 8,145,060.
The number looks scary and mysterious. But it is, afterall, just simple maths. And it's all explained here. OMG... It's such a simple concept but it took me quite a while to see it... REALITY.

yaya says bye to her dream 1.5mil... it was never meant to be mine.

Happy Birthday!

2009-09-24T21:30:00.000+08:00

Yaya had a wonderful bday! (minus the fact that I'm older by one year, but I can always continue to deceive myself that I am 15 every year.)

I'd love to post photos of the pleasant surprise my colleagues gave me... (if only I can bring a camera to work) Thanks peeps for the balloons and card ^^ I was so touched to see the happy birthday balloon chain! Thanks!!!

I spent my half day leave with my sister~~~ and I've received a beautiful mirror from her! =) the music box thingy was really cool! It has many dots & as you wind it the music will play!!! We liked it a lot and my sister bought one for me! =) This one sings "beauty and the beast"~ *hugs hui* (if she ever lets me)

I'm playing with picasa to get the collage done... and its so hard! JY is so pro lah... all her collages look so pretty... mine's rather amateur... ok~ better than nth eh? =P

2009-09-20T02:30:00.001+08:00

有朋友们的陪伴，但心里却是孤单的。
我有点害怕那种感觉，有点讨厌表里不一的我。
我打从心底庆幸拥有你们，但也不得不去在意，
和你们在一起时最孤单的自己。

是我太自私了，自卑始终战胜理智。

生日快乐

2009-09-12T11:39:00.002+08:00

我不想再期待什么，因为我已期待了太久了。
我不想再许什么愿望，因为最渴望的，都没有成真。

生日，又让我再许愿，再期待一年吗？

The Shift

2009-09-02T22:40:00.000+08:00

In a unfortunate twist of events, I was evicted from my once cosy 2m x 3m room to occupy half of a 10.7 square-meters room with my little sister. She insists that I occupy more than half the room - which MAY be true... considering my stuff are now unceremoniously dumped in bags around the corners of the room.

I'm now exploring ways of furniture arrangement so as to maximise the limited space. I've tried (in vain) to influence the lunch-go-where decisions of my colleagues, to some-how steer them towards the nearby IKEA. I'll try again tomorrow *grinz*

In the meantime, I'll just have to dig through the bags every day. Lol... it's not that bad, I can survive the mess once I managed to squeeze out a space for the computer. 'cos I really cannot survive without the computer... It's not how much I love my 23" LCD, but it's all the entertainment it gives me - the not-so-exciting FB games, the draggy korean/taiwan/hk/jap dramas, the occasional You-tube surfing, the rare blogging etc. (oops) However, I've not watched a SINGLE episode of ANY drama since The Shift, cos someone who shares the room needs to mug in SILENCE. Well well... I guess I can't complain when I don't have 11 readings to do for the first tutorial... *Gambatte* I'll try to survive without shows for a while then...

It's the time of the year again, and I hope everyone will start asking me out! Lol...and I realise I've not posted a birthday wish list since my 21st bday! It is time to post it, and I hope I get all of them ^^

五月天！

2009-08-30T05:25:00.000+08:00

yaya's so into 五月天！The concert was really good~ and the girls' chat after the concert was really nice too... it's been a long time since I really let down my hair and go crazy for a while... that explains why I'm still awake at this ungodly hour, putting my thoughts from the concert down before I procrastinate and forget about it again. Hee...

Watching the concert at Indoor Stadium brings back many memories... There is just so much work behind any concert, much less to say for such a large-scale pop concert. The high-tech globe screen was cool! And I love the light effects and how it all goes so nicely with the music. The screenplay that told the story behind the "D.N.A." concert was entertaining, and a wonderful start to the concert.

I'm impressed with the stamina of the guys... There were no guest performers to create a break for the guys to rest, but they were able to make everyone high for the whole 4+hrs (they sang till past 12am). I know they're tired, but thanks for making it happen. =)

It's a pretty scene with all those flying confetti.. but pity the guys who were busy creating the effect, loading the confetti onto the huge fans... all these hardwork and so much more... to make the concert a success.

While I enjoy the luxury of being the audience, I wonder how it would really feel to be the one performing on stage. How would it feel, to be one of the few performing, vs. one of the thousands watching. The fond memories of the many performances in my school days seem to come back all at once.

I think I better go to sleep... I've got Jap lessons tomorrow morning at 10am~ *yawns*

mumbles...

2009-08-28T21:43:00.000+08:00

yaya wants to blog, but there are so many thoughts going on in my head that I hardly know what I should write. haha...

I can't complaint about work (lest my name appears in the internal corp comms emails to the bosses), so I'll have no choice but to complaint about life... or the lack of it. I wonder what happens to all the precious hours I have after work... Since I sleep late (around 12 each night) and I reach home relatively early (7+pm)... by right I should have up to 4.5 hours each night. Minus the necessary makan time (1 hr) and the bathroom singing (0.5hr), I should have 3hours each night! And each day, these golden hours are spent in front of the computer - be it FB, FB games, shows (I've run out of decent shows to watch!)... OMG! that's how NO LIFE my life is! sobs...

However, when I think about it, I realise I do feel more attached to the family than before. The days of hostel life has made me realise how much I love my family and my home... Just being at home, knowing that Daddy, Mummy, Grandma and Hui is rotting at home with me... That's already such a blessing... mushy huh? but yeah, that's the truth. =) Hostel can be scarily lonely when my darling roomy is not around.

There are more things (totally unrelated) running through my mind... but in order not to make this post look too "rojak", I guess I'll stop here. Happy wkends~ looking forward to 五月天!!!

我知道我不应该执着于过去，但我却看不到未来。这样的我，什么时候才会长大？

yaya's getting lazy...

2009-08-17T20:53:00.000+08:00

Just look at the number of posts on this page... I've gotten lazy to blog. That's the best evidence. No photos... I'm lazy. (It seems like no one else has uploaded photos fr the farm stay as well... ha!)

I went to batam & turi beach resort last last wk end (yes... the long wk end with national day). YJ & JY are fun to hang out with =) turi is pretty! (minus the not-so-clean pool) the rooms are nice, with 4 poster beds & mosquito nets, but still... the mosquitoes are invincible. I'd love to post photos, but knowing how lazy I am, I think they'll never make it to this page. lol... maybe i can wait for JY to post & I'll jus give a link. ha ha.

Work's suffocating... and the wonderful thing is I cannot complain on FB anymore. Boss has recently become my fren on FB... *sigh* so I'll just rattle on here, on my little space which I've come to realise i dun really care if anyone's reading... seems like a lot of ppl are too busy to read blogs, not to mention I'm not exactly popular. haha...

I think I need a break, though I've just been back from one. Work's really discouraging these days. I've tried so hard to talk myself into thinking of the money... but nowadays the event "pay day" does not keep me excited for more than 2 days. THIS is sad. I don't know what to look forward to anymore. HELP!

I'm supposed to be working... (YES! I've brought the lappie back to do some work...) But I've yet to start. *long sigh*~~~~~~

Agri-tour~ once in a lifetime!

2009-08-01T23:50:00.000+08:00

I've not felt so tired since a looong time ago~ went on a farm-hopping tour with nellers... to my astonishment, there are so many farms ard the LCK area and the whole place doesn't feel like the familar Singapore...

Too bad the room in the farm stay resort was too small~ (no much walking space at all...) else i would gladly have spent the entire day in the aircon room~ But well, visiting farms is not something you'd catch me doing out of my own interest... so thanks to the nellers for dragging me on my first ever (and i dun think i'll be doing it again in the near future) farm-hopping journey...

d'kranji (nth exciting at all)> farmart (some shops, no bees viewing, sadly) > vege farm (the baby dragonfruit is sooo kawaii) > koi farm (lots & lots of kois, in all sizes. saw an interesting species with wing-like flaps) > qian fu (dragonfish, lobster, goldfishes... fish spa! - super ticklish! & long kau fishing~) > bollywood veggies (lots of vege, spices, bananas etc) > agrotech farm (grows aloe vera, edible cactus, wheatgrass, mushrooms - yaya bought wheatgrass cereal.. i hope it's nice...) > Jurong frog farm (i thought this was boring... if only the frogs become princes... THAT would be interesting! hee) > Gardenasia (this is a much better farmstay... looks like bali-style villa with swimming pool even... looks expensive too... anyway, check out the rocking chairs by the pond beside the bistro =P )

We wanted to go to the goat farm (Hay Dairies) but it closes at 4pm! way too early~ i guess the goaties need sleep~ oh! and Sungei Buloh closes at 7pm too! (we arrived at the gates at 7pm, to find it locked~) The pottery (can't remember the name... it's the one near NTU) closes at 5pm... so basically, farm-hopping have to stop around 6pm~ for those planning~ start early! =)

9 places in a day! cool! but tiring! I think I've got enough farms for a lifetime... I guess Agri-tainment is not my cup of tea.. I need a shopping trip soon =P

the line between reality and fantasy

2009-06-20T19:19:00.003+08:00

说起来真好笑。。。

偶像剧，看多了也许真的会中毒。
有时我会矛盾地否定自己，告诉自己，那都是假的。电视里的世界，它是虚构的，但同时也是真实的。也许，这种不现实就是我想要追求的，让自己在喘不过气的现实生活中，有一个逃避的管道。可是，那种希望，都是假的。

我讨厌活在没有希望的现实中。我讨厌，这个没有梦想，没有目标，没有志气的自己。
陈思雅，你的人生，好假。

Nihon & Nihongo

2009-06-13T00:50:00.003+08:00

I miss Japan!

Met a dear colleague of mine on the bus to work today (the ever crowded 145)... and we started to talk about her latest trip to Japan~ and once I get started, I can't stop talking about my experiences in the land of the rising sun... It seemed just not so long ago that I was walking along the streets in Tokyo and Kyoto, exploring the Himeji castle, admiring the Kobe street light-up, splurging all my yen (& credit cards) on the shops up the slope to Kiyomizu-dera, crazily taking many many photos with the red maple leaves, blah blah blah... Oh, I am starting at it again... lolx

Perhaps it would be good to one day move to Japan! The emotional side of me wants to go back to the island and spend happy days, but the practical side of me wants me to count my dollars (or the lack of it) first. Haha... Well, first things first, I am gonna start taking Japanese lessons soon! *yay* Gambatte!

Pei Shi-san, gomenasai... Can't wait for you to take Jap together... The sunday lessons which were supposed to start end June seemed to be missing in action... My little sis got a little tired of waiting... I think there probably won't be a Sunday lesson for Beginner 1 until sometime in August... (I heard that the teachers are not very keen to teach on Sundays... So...)

I'm starting lessons next wk =P and so I've been "a i u e o"-ing pretty often... Lucky for me, YJ & JY are little experts in Jap! I have 2 more sensei to teach me! & pei wo "a i u e o"! Thanks darlings! =)

yaya wonders... is there really a recession? How come the PC show is flooded with people every day?! Things are not so cheap, but sales are not so low either~

L.O.V.E.

2009-06-01T11:24:00.002+08:00

I heard over the radio today… a story that left me both heartened & disheartened at the same time.

A 92-year-old man had re-married a 85-year old woman in Taiwan. They were separated for over 60 years due to the war. After the war, the husband settled down in Taiwan while the wife was in China. They both went on to marry a second partner and start their own families, until both partners past away. It was in 1993 that the man found his ex-wife in China and brought her and her son to Taiwan to stay with him. The husband felt that he had not fulfilled his duties as a partner and vowed to re-marry the woman he had loved for so long.

It’s touching to see true love, even after 60 years of separation. So much can happen in 60 years. People change after 6 years, much less to say 60 years! Unwavering love… It’s a miracle it happens!

But I see the other side of the story too. Both the man and woman went on with their lives after the war. They found new partners, formed their own families and lived separated for 52 years. If the so-called "true love" had been in their hearts all along, isn’t it unfair to the second partner who actually lived with them for such a long time? Is there really space in one’s heart for more than one special person?

Is time a proof of one’s love? Or is time a test of love?

(The News article & Post/Photo)

Serious Sunday Blues

2009-05-17T14:24:00.000+08:00

News Update!

The usual Monday Blues has just gotten more serious. A mutated version of the virus has recently been identified... Known as the Sunday Blues, the more serious infections get the blues from as early as Sunday afternoon. The infected persons usually feel lathargic, unenthusiastic about the last weekend before work, and tend to have the repeated obsession of the idea of "digging a hole and hiding herself" to avoid starting the work week the following day. A common symptom in infected persons is the unconscious denial of sleep on Sunday nights. They will usually rather spend the late hours awake, either through watching dramas or surfing the Internet aimlessly, well past the usual bedtime. This often results in insufficient sleep and a moody Monday morning, giving a more intensive Monday Blues. There has been no proven cure for this virus, but some online resources give the following tips to beat the Monday Blues.

1. What and how
What you do is not important, it is how you do it. Whatever you do, do it with deep alertness; then even small things become sacred. You can clean the floor like a robot; you have to clean it, so you clean it.
But it could have been a great experience; you missed it.
You cleaned the floor and that would have cleansed you. Clean the floor full of awareness; be luminous with awareness.

2. Remember yourself
One thing has to be a continuous thread: remember yourself.
While walking, say, "I am walking." While sitting, say, "I am sitting."
And feel the shift in your awareness. There will be a sudden spark.

3. Are you a perfectionist?
Beware! What counts is being total, not perfect. This brings out the best in you. The very idea of perfectionism drives people crazy.
The perfectionist is bound to be neurotic. S/he cannot enjoy life till s/he is perfect. And perfection never happens, it is not in the nature of things.
Life is imperfect. Only death is perfect. Totality is possible, perfection is not possible.
There is a huge difference between perfection and totality. Perfection is a goal for the future, totality is an experience now. If you can get into any act with your whole heart, you are total. Totality brings wholeness, health and sanity.
The perfectionist forgets about totality. There is a big gap between how s/he is and how s/he wants to be.
And, of course, change can't happen now, it is always tomorrow or the day after. So life is postponed.
These are small tools, but they will help you see the gap between workdays and holidays decreasing. You will eagerly wait for work to begin.

Another known catalyst of Sunday Blues is the lack of fulfilling personal activites and events in the weekend, especially, of course, on Sundays. Thus, experts (unwilling to be named) recommend that Sundays should be filled with exciting activities. "And no, dramas and Internet and no-brain clicking games are definitely nowhere near 'exciting'."

Disclaimer: This article was written by an individual with some serious Sunday Blues that she has been unable to get rid of since the past few months. Believe what you wish to.

lazy yaya...

2009-05-16T10:10:00.003+08:00

Oh, I realise I've been getting lazy again... Just look at the frequency of the posts! Lolx...

Ok... It's 5 mths into 2009 and I have yet to fulfill my new yr resolution of learning Japanese or keyboard/guitar/vocal... *sigh* ok... At the very least I've sorta decided to go take a course at the Jap sch in kovan... but I'll need khakis (cos I'm nt so confident that my little sis can afford the fees... Stressed to be paying for 2 pax leh..)

I expect the months ahead to be real stressful (work-wise). Looking very hard for some form of motivation to last me through the many months ahead. I guess I'm much more confident in taking instructions from seniors than working by myself... argh! HELP!!!

败犬女王

2009-05-04T00:38:00.000+08:00

新加坡的四季：热、很热、非常热、下雨！
（热死我了！！！）

败犬女王:
婚姻不是绑住幸福的工具。。。现实生活中，结婚不是结局，反而是考验的开始。
永远不要对女人说谎，应为我们一眼就可以看穿了。你知道男人和女人说谎最大的差别在哪里吗？男人说谎，是要让自己觉得好过。而女人说谎呢，是要让对方好过。我们选择欺骗，是因为不想伤害深爱的人。我们不是故意的，只是没有伤害对方的勇气，所以才隐藏真正的答案。

I should be sleeping... let's finish this episode first! =P

人生的答案，要上哪去找？

2009-04-05T23:46:00.003+08:00

有时候我会问自己，我到底想要什么？

读书，是为了寻找知识？证明自己？讨好家人？未来找个工作？
工作，是为了金钱？梦想？家人？打发时间？
考到好成绩，不一定能找到好工作。
找到好工作，不一定会满足。
当梦想和现实不能并存，是不是就该懵懵懂懂地过一生？
知足，就一定能常乐吗？

恋爱，是为了找个人陪伴？守护彼此? 追求浪漫？结婚？
结婚，又是为了什么？名分？建立家庭？顺理成章？
如果，婚姻不美满，是不是宁愿单身？
有时候，一个人是自由、洒脱的。
但有时候，一个人是寂寞孤独的。

那么多的问号，又有谁可以给我答案？

眼前一片海洋，漁夫一把撈起來，滿滿的都是可愛的熱帶魚，可是沒有一條是你。

累~

2009-03-25T20:30:00.003+08:00

身心疲倦。。。

败犬女王: 真正的幸福，还是建立在互相有感觉的基础上，其他什么都不重要。

Do you know yourself?

2009-03-22T11:03:00.002+08:00

did a personality quiz i found off Jiayun's bloggie... http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

i guess the results may be rather general, but pretty accurate.. at least for me... the "right job" part is darn true... I guess that's why I'm still an engineer! Lolx...

Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education:
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:
You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

recapping the old times

2009-03-20T17:07:00.002+08:00

another 20 min before the WEEKEND! hee... I've been spending the last few hours reading my own old blog posts... Since the start of my uni days to now... I'm feeling so old!

I read about all the major and minor events in my life that I had chosen to blog about. All the fun and laughter in the hall days, CO days.. the complaints about temp work & exams... the bintan trip, Beijing CO trip, Taiwan, Yeppoon (Australia), Japan, Melbourne... THIS is one of the few times when i realised so much has actually happened in my life. Though I do feel that something is still missing... (haiz...)

I remember the loneliness and helplessness I used to feel when I was all alone in hall... When my roomy and friends were all not around... the nights in which I would cry my heart out cos I gave in and lost to the loneliness and emptiness within me... It really make me realise how important it is to have someone around. To my dearest friend who is feeling depressed in the same situation... rest assured you are not the only one who had experienced this. I'll be happy to offer some company - msn or call =) and we'll be meeting up really soon! Don't stay depressed! Jiayou! 我挺你！

ok! managed to drop a post b4 work ends... Happy Weekend!

梁静茹 - 天灯

2009-03-18T21:26:00.004+08:00

一首听了真的很感伤的歌。也许，这么多年后的我，还是没有从当时的心情中走出来。。。

梁静茹 - 天灯
词:林夕曲:郑楠

在最像情侣的那一瞬
和他朝着晚空放天灯
两颗心许过甚麽愿望
我想问始终都不敢问

秒针追逐感动的可能
时间渲染感情的气氛
两个倒影在溪水浮沉
一个忘形就难以辨认

沉默的旅程乐在快乐得真假不分
追浮云的人浪漫在拥有过暧昧的名份
比拥抱单纯

暗恋的明灯一路上如烟火随身
宁愿那想像的情人永远保温
美梦别成真让我梦到忘记疑问
寂寞就想想那盏天灯那指纹

怀念没有吻过的嘴唇
想像没有说过的永恒
错过纠缠不清的凌晨
逃过幻觉破灭的黄昏

沉默的旅程乐在快乐得甜酸不分
追浮云的人浪漫在拥有过暧昧的名份
比拥抱单纯

暗恋的明灯一路上如烟火随身
宁愿那想像的情人永远保温
美梦别成真让我梦到忘记疑问
寂寞就想想那盏天灯那指纹

到满脸皱纹那场回忆比相恋逼真
曾经有一个人燃烧过一夜的青春

暗恋的明灯一路上如烟火随身
宁愿那想像的情人永远保温
美梦别成真让我梦醒不留疤痕
我的天空里有他眼神他体温

cough cough cough

2009-03-14T16:43:00.007+08:00

I'm coughing! (duh?) Haiz... just so lucky to be sick just after I'm back from Melbourne... Must be the weather here in Singapore. Lolx.

Since my lappie has been coughing badly oso... (the fan has officially became dead) I went to brave the IT Show Human squeezing on Thursday night. And surprisingly, the deals are good but not wonderful (at least for ppl looking for cheap and good specs like me). Ended up buying from outside the fair... with a HUGE 23" LCD that has taken up ALL my desk space... so much for buying a slim CPU...

Ok! here are pix from Melbourne! =)

Survived the 6 hours drive to see the Twelve Apostles (or whatever that's left of it)...

COWS!!!!!

I like this pic! The pretty pond and clouds and moo moos~

Back in Melbourne City... The river is so pretty! Was staying at Southbank, and as we walk around every night, the camera keeps shooting the pretty night scenes. =)

Canoeing can be so romantic! (Oh I love the ferris wheel! - though small and far away)

In order not to bore everyone with 30 photos of the same river... (lolx...) there are only 2 here. =P

Flinder's Street Station! *pretty!*

A friend who is a freelance photographer shot this for me (pss... he charges over $100/hr usually orh!) I like this photo!

Graffiti everywhere... in the alleys, on the streets, on shop doors and walls... I guess the shop owners can't be bothered to remove them cos they will keep coming back..

Ferris wheel again! This is taken from another hotel on Spencer Street a colleague moved to for the last night. Nice view!

Melbourne in autumn is really nice =) as long as you bring a thicker jacket. Lolx... I seriously prefer the refreshing cold to the hot and humid Singapore. I guess I really do like autumn~ (Japan in autumn was fantastic too! )

Live from Melbourne!

2009-03-04T10:05:00.002+08:00

Woo hoo! I'm now at Melbourne!!!

Work has been nothing but work since Monday.... luckily we arrived on Sunday and we had the chance to take an ultra long drive to Great Ocean Road to see the 12 apostles... Will upload pix when I'm back in Singapore bah... the hotel has no internet access unless I pay a "small fee".

I thought it'll be hot in Melbourne with the recent fires... but it was so damn cold when I arrived and I really regret pulling out the jacket and windbreaker from my luggage!!! Heng at least I have a pathetic cardigan with me (better than nothing actually...)

It's cold in the morning, hot in the afternoon, and damn cold again at night, coupled with strong winds and drizzles once in a while. woo~ I like the cold weather really =) but I still don't like the sun that much. Haha...

I hope I get some time to go shopping! Shops close too early and work ends too late... =(

blog blog blog!

2009-02-25T23:11:00.004+08:00

I should be packing my bags for melbourne...
or watching my dramas...
or preparing to sleep early...
or chit chating with my mum...

but somehow... I'm still fussing about my dear bloggie. Wahahahaha... tired staring at the little lappie screen (is it my imagination or is my screen flickering?)...
I realise I really love how the background remains static while u scroll... (sua gu)
And here's the latest of my favourite tunes (from my latest drama craze 败犬女王!)

Looking at the archives section.. I realise how much less I've been blogging in recent years! The no. went into a steep drop since I first started blogging! From 85 to 30 to 17 to 9! OMG! You mean I was so lazy? Haha... Shall aim to add photos too! (when will I get down to uploading?)

blogskins

2009-02-25T00:09:00.002+08:00

Haven't exactly played around with blogger much until today.

I finally discovered how to apply background! Wahahahaha... by the time i realized it i've spent way too long on this... its time to sleep so that i wont be late for tml's meeting! Argh!

Shall continue to source for THE blogskin =P

and wanna figure out how to add those cool gadgets! hee hee...

宅女的一天

2009-02-23T02:21:00.002+08:00

最近“宅男宅女”好像特别受欢迎，至少在偶像剧的世界里是这样 =)

看看自己无趣的一天，好像也蛮符合宅女嘛！

下午看韩剧，然后不小心睡了一个午觉。睡醒时竟然就已经9点了！
晚上就和电视一起吃晚餐，11点就准时开电脑，看久违了的偶像剧。
睡得太饱，结果现在还有精神地blog！zzzzzzz.... What a boring day... lols...

cham! tml still gotta work!!! argh.... better go sleep soon!

missing you~

2009-02-15T18:45:00.002+08:00

Working makes me realise just how wonderful being a student is... No strict working time restrictions, no need to wake up at 7am everyday (if you know how to plan your timetable), no need to feel so tired at the end of the day everyday, no need to miss your good friends for a long time...

Seems like forever since I last met my darlings~ and organising a gathering is no longer that easy when we are all working. *sigh* Okok! I'll try to make it happen ba! Gambatte!

She Ya feels sad that her friends don't have time for her (sob...), but hopefully she'll quit her bad habit of procrastinating and try out these things soon:
1. Learn Japanese! (though this should have come before going to Japan right?)
2. Learn Piano / Guitar! (hmm... first I need a space in my room to place it somewhere,)
3. Work hard & save up! (Goal: to repay loans by end 2011!)

No more holiday trips for this year! (short and cheap trips MAYBE...) Will be going to Melbourne for work (What? Australia again?) without my good buddies so I think it's going to be bit lonely (ke lian...).

Sundays always pass by so fast... Let's enjoy the last few hours of this weekend, yeah!?

不知不觉中，原来大家都找到了幸福！祝我的好朋友们：幸福快乐，长长久久！=)
思雅也想早日找到生命中的另一半！

New skin

2009-02-14T22:13:00.002+08:00

Yo Ho!!! Long Time No See!

Yeah I know I've been lazy and this place is pretty much dead... That's why I'm reviving it on Valentine's Day! Was just at the zoo today and there's such a huge crowd that I couldn't even find a place to stand to watch the Penguin's shows! (sobs...) But the elephants are so kawaii!!!! *hee*

Anyways, I'm so tired doing this blog skin thingy I think I'll stop for now. Happy V-day to all!

*I'm missing all my darlings~~~*

2009

2009-01-05T00:49:00.002+08:00

It's a new year! I know this is a little late for a new year post... but well... I was too lazy... a 4 day long weekend has made me feel like such a lazy pig I sorta forgot it's 2009 already! Haha!

Although new year has never meant anything special to me, it still manages to remind me that another year has passed. 2008 was a special year. It marks the transition from student to working adult, and many first times:

the first time I visited Taiwan & Japan, 2 of my top dream holiday destinations!
the first time I travel to Australia for work
the first time I get to experience military exercise
first FYP
first job
first credit card

It seems pretty long ago that I was in NTU, mugging hard for exams, staying late with Peishi for FYP, going for CO practices, the NTUCO concert, FYP presentation, convocation ceremony...

Then it was Taiwan with Sylvia! I finally met my uncle and aunt who are working and staying there and has not been back for the past many years. Taiwan is one place where dreams come true, or so I've always felt. I hope I will get a chance to live and stay in Taiwan one day (retirement? hee hee...) and I WILL visit again... I think my parents would love to go visit too! =) - I better start saving up!

I started working end June 08, and I'm so glad I've made such good friends! Thanks to Jia Yun for always accompanying me while we take the "arrows" together! And also the rest on our boss's "arrow list" - Chaowei, Chi Meng, Hau-ge, Suwei.

I'm especially lucky to have such capable teammates! Thanks to my "lecturer" CL for being such a wonderful mentor, leader and boss. Thanks for explaining all the technical stuff like a real professor, and the many brainwashing sessions you've given us. Thanks for cooking our meals in Australia and taking such good care of us! Thanks for putting up with my "sotong"-ness when I forgot to bring my wallet & IC the other day! =P And the forever young YM - thanks for all your kind guidance and help this past 6 months! I'm going to miss them both when they go for further studies later this year. I'll jiayou and try to learn as much as I can in these few months! =) Good luck for your studies!

My favourite trip this year - Japan! F&E is really the best way to travel! =) though we 3 girls (me, elaine, xuan) were too pampered and we chose to spend lots of $$ on hotels instead of hostels... maybe next time I should go hostels or home stays instead! (sounds like lots of fun also!) Though we spent lots of time doing our research before we embarked on the trip, it was all worth it! There are still so much more to see in Japan - I wanna go back again! I love the beautiful red maple leaves, the strong cool winds and the cold winter, the friendly (and shy!) Japanese, the mix of tradition and modernity in the cities, the really complicated Japanese language, the hot sweet sake and the never-ending shopping! I really enjoyed Japan, but for now, I've gotta work hard and play less. =)

I've spent the first 4 days of 2009 resting (or slacking). Just back from a Mayday concert with my sis and her friends - was really high! Hee hee... Okok... here's my list of "to-dos" for the remaining 361 days of the year =)

Work hard! -> Will be travelling to Melbourne for work in Feb. (must be more independent!)
Pay Loans -> too many loans but must jiayou! aim to pay off by 2011!
Learn Japanese!
Learn something else -> maybe guitar / keyboard / vocal
Meet up more with my darlings!!! =)

Happy New Year to all my friends! May 2009 be a wonderful year!

Japan!

2008-12-21T15:26:00.003+08:00

I'm back from Japan! And I'm missing Japan badly! It was cold but really wonderful compared to Singapore's HOT weather (I tot it's dec... shouldn't it be cooler?)
9 Days in Japan was great and I love the maple leaves!!! Perhaps I should revisit in Spring to watch the cherry blossoms!!! Sakura~ Sakura~~~

Photos on Facebook:

Tokyo - http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=190737&l=99ab4&id=733130499
Kyoto (1) - http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=190749&l=c29dc&id=733130499
Kyoto (2) - http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=190769&l=de663&id=733130499

Back from Aussie

2008-10-30T22:21:00.003+08:00

I'm back! Time sure flies... 20 days in Australia has gone by real fast... I'm now back in Singapore, facing reality again...

Life's good in Australia (minus the work)... It's quite something to see all shops closing at 530pm everyday... and it's really demoralizing to see the entire mall closed except for the supermarket - and it's only 7pm (5pm S'pore time!). We stayed in Yeppoon, a small town with ONE shopping street (that's the CBD). Luckily, the beach & seaview make up for everything =)

We have to endure 1.5 hrs per trip to travel from Yeppoon to the training area but i guess that beats staying in camp! =P The trip has made me seen so much... It's hard to put them all in words here... but well... to say the truth, I realised I'm such a city girl - I can't survive in the wilderness... I was so terrified of the buzz of the flies swarming around in the field that I could hear the "replay" even as I lie in bed that night!

Well... Ain't I glad to be home! =)

If you only see the darkness in front,
You'll miss the galaxy of stars in the sky above.
If you only feel the scorching rays,
You'll never appreciate the warmth of the sun.

work work work

2008-09-10T16:38:00.003+08:00

I used to be able to write all sorts of crap here...but recently I find myself staring very hard at the blogger page and wondering what to write... I can't really talk much about work on blog... in case it ends up on one of the internal mass emails of the cpy.. hahaz...

I'm almost 3 months into the job... Life's good so far (I guess...) though sometimes I wonder if I'm in the right line... When what interests you is not the same as what you are good at, which one will you choose? When your dreams probably cannot be easily achieved without forgoing everything you've had all your life... What will you choose?

Will be spending 20days in the desert soon... It's work so I guess I have no choice but to be roasted there... (argh...) I hope I will still be recognizable after I'm back! (I don't want to be black black...) So well... please think of me! *blush*

我也好想去相信，但我已等了好久。我还能继续等下去吗？

14 July

2008-07-14T22:40:00.002+08:00

人因梦想而伟大。没有梦想的我，能成为伟大的人吗？

一直在意那些没有的、渴望的，就永远不会发现已经拥有的幸福。

Photos (link)

2008-06-01T02:13:00.001+08:00

Tada! Photos are up on facebook (finally)~ watashiwa is too lazie to post on blogger... cos it's not that friendly to post 210 photos up one by one~ And captioning them... hee... so here are the links to see the photos!

Part 1: http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=118381&l=91827&id=733130499
Part 2: http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=118485&l=787ee&id=733130499
Part 3: http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=118495&l=d98d5&id=733130499
Part 4: http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=118506&l=fd122&id=733130499

Pss... watch out for Sylvia's photos.. they should be coming soon... as long as the busy woman gets down to filtering work~ haha... Jiayou orh!

lazie me!

2008-05-31T02:49:00.002+08:00

Lala! hee... paiseh!!!

Bin back in Singapore for almost 2 wks... and no pix up yet cos watashiwa has been very lazie... PS: Filtering through 1,854 photos (=4.25GB) is a torture which I have bin trying to postpone till now... haha... good news is... i've cut down to 250 photos (woow!) and i vow to continue to cut down abit more else i will have another torturing session of uploading! lolz...

All in all, Taiwan is FUN! so for janey who's already there... enjoy! =) and ning angeline & gang going in 2 wks... Look forward to it! =) My fav is still Alishan... cos of the cool temperature and interesting trees... Taipei is wonderful for shopping, and the Kaohsiung Dream Mall Ferris wheel is so kawaii! I wish i have more time at Taipei 101! And too bad I didnt get to see more of Taroko Gorge cos of the road repairs! Next time I shall go Taiwan on F&E! (Care to join?)

Ok! Photos up within the next wk (i hope!) since I've retired (almost) from my part-time work and beginning the 1 mth plus of rotting at home... and witnessing the decline of my life-long savings... (sob)

yawnzz... post photos soon... ciaoz for now!

psss... brainies i miss ya all!!!! poor me in singapore waiting for you gals to come back!!! hope u r enjoying urselves! *muacks* with lots of luvvvvvvv

Hualien!

2008-05-12T17:38:00.002+08:00

Yo Ho!!! Reporting live from Taiwan Hualien Parkview Hotel!
Taiwan's weather has been really good since we arrived on Thurs! No rains to dampen the mood so far, but the long bus rides are irritating and the tour guide's "fengshui" and chinese medicine stories are driving me (& poor sylvia) nuts...

Thurs (8May) - Long plane ride... and Keelung night market is not bad! Oh! Check this out! (http://www.85cafe.com/) They have really pretty and yummy cakes!!! Shall get more in Taipei! =)

Fri (9May) - Jiufen - Bus Breakdown! - Hsinchu (eat bee hoon) - Sun Moon Lake (almost night time) - Chiayi

Sat (10May) - Chiayi - Alishan (pretty! too bad no chance to take the alishan railway) - Kaohsiung

Sun (11May) - KaoHsiung - Fo Guang Shan - Hakka Cultural Village - Taitung (cold & windy) - watched my idol drama straight from Taiwan! *finally no nid to wait for websites to load*

Mon (12May) - Taitung - San Xian Tai (sea view) - Ba Xian Dong (1 cave - cos the rest are too dangerous...) - Hualien

Heading to Taroko Gorge (yay finally!) and Taipei tomorrow! Lalalalalala...
Well... that's all.. watch out for more news & photos soon!

Taiwan!

2008-05-08T01:21:00.000+08:00

Woo!!! This time tml... I'll be at Taiwan!!! ;)

Bin so busy these days I only got to really start packing yesterday! I've survived FYP Oral Presentation! *yay!* That's the final major "test" in the whole of my 4 yrs in NTU! Happy Graduation!! =)

wah i m soooo busy suddenly! Just heard that FYP binded copy submission is 21days after Oral Presentation instead of 20 june... Wonderful! This means I have to finish editing and confirming the final copy to send for printing before I leave and have to trouble Peishi to help me with the printing and binding... My wonderful FYP partner! *muacks* i lurve ya! hee hee... Bz Bz Bz... I am still charging my Hp and camera battery (so last minute....)

Will be in Taiwan for 11 days! (8 May - 18 May) I hope 2 gb of memory is enough for my photos! lolx... i will try to ration memory! haha!

Elaine will be flying to australia on the same day! AND flying back on the same day too! lolx... =) too bad we are on different flights... I was supposed to go Taiwan with her lor... but australia will be fun too! I wan koala bears!!! *winkx*

I will go test water for those of u all flying Taiwan in the next few weeks ok?! Check this space for news! Hee...

Will upload fotos etc when i get back! Happy Holidays to all!!! *Cheers*
*flying at 8am! better go zzz now! nitez!

back in action!!!

2008-04-24T21:13:00.002+08:00

... after 4 mths... haha

Oops I am sooooo sorry for neglecting this page of mine... It's so dead I realise I've even forgotten what's the link! (cock my head) So much has happened in the past semester... And I am now glad to announce that I've survived my LAST EXAMINATION for my whole four years in NTU! Lolx... AND next up, TAIWAN!!

I will be travelling to taiwan on tour with Sylvia! =) Well, I'll first need to survive my FYP presentation on the 6th, then will be flying on 8th May. The tour's 8 days with great hotel stays (Sylvia says our hotels have wonderful ratings online!!) and we will be extending the stay in Taipei for another 3 nights. So, I'll be back on 18th!!! Will bring back lots of pix (with my NEW Fujifilm camera!) and hopefully lots of maggie mee! (hee heee) and I know Sylvia's gonna drag me around to go buy comic books... =P

After Taiwan, I guess it's KL with Pei shi, xia xia & ning! =) It'll be great going KL with my wonderful lesson-mates! Afterall, we've spent 3 yrs looking at each other for almost all our lessons! haha... I'll really miss them when we all start work!

Speaking of work, it's DSTA for me! Most probably I'll be commencing work in July (when I am starting to finish my savings... I seriously don't think that little sum will survive till then! lolx) and poor me will be working at ulu Tiong Bahru... (ok.. it's not THAT ulu lah... just abit out of the way...)

Hmmx... I do wonder what will I become, say 5 years later... and what will my friends become? =) I guess we'll have to wait and see!

dec

2007-12-01T20:56:00.000+08:00

Exams are over and the hols are here... (for pretty long le for me actually....) I know I have been lazy to blog, lazy to come online, lazy to keep in touch with all the people I care about.... Just 3 months of school, and I feel like I've lost contact with the real world so much that I don't know how to start to get back my life.
I wish for the good old days... I wish I have all my friends with me all the time. I don't like the internet... I don't like talking to the computer... I don't like how msn makes people all seem so far away...
I love to watch dramas, but I don't like the empty feeling I get each time I finish watching a drama...
I have so many tasks on hand, but I just find no drive to start any of them. I don't like to see career talks announcements or invitations because they remind me that I don't have a dream for the future. I hate to admit it, but I miss the old days so much... that I don't want to move on...

exams!

2007-11-05T22:00:00.001+08:00

Aww... This place is more or less dead le i think... hahaz... i almost forgot how to log into blogger! lolx!

examz in a week's time!!! *ahhhhhhhh!!!* and i'm FAR from prepared~ *sianz*
ok... less than 9 days left to start of exams... but at least my exams will be over really fast... for those interested, here are the 6 golden numbers... 14, 15, 16, 20, 20, 21 (dun ask me why I'm so suay... i din have a choice!)... well... what else can i say? 早死早超生!

Joyce must jiayou too! ya exams also ard the same time rite? Gambatte! I miss ya so much! i miss the brainies! We haven met for real long... but i guess the next meeting wont be anytime soon oso... at least till after my exams n janey's exams and clare's forever-ongoing school term end... I miss ya darlings!!

Haven been meeting up with esther n sylvia since after my bday oso... sorry darlings school's killing me and wait till i re-incarnate after my exams den we'll meet up k?

and xuan and elaine too! even my mummy is asking how come i haven been meeting you gals! lolx.... ok... i admit i m too lazie... and i guess u all r real bz too lah... we'll all jiayou n i promise i will go haunt u all after my exams k?! Wahahahahaha...

please don't remind me how i should be mugging rite now... cos i've been watching a WHOLE long list of shows le... ( i think this happens every exam period... i'm REALLY trying to cut down le... i wish~) well... i wish i've got more time... and more episodes to watch~

To all muggers out there (including myself)~ jiayou orh!

The meaning of life is to give life meaning

2007-08-27T09:15:00.000+08:00

那时候的我，太天真了。
我以为，喜欢就好，
却没有去想，我要得到底是什么。
也许到了今天，我还是不知道。
将来，对我来所就好像一个迷。
现在，我却已经在这个迷里迷路了。
找不到存在的理由，但却庆幸我存在着。
也许我还不够成熟吧，
挥霍生命，是我太浪费了。

The meaning of life is to give life meaning.

sch's starting!

2007-08-04T22:36:00.000+08:00

Wah! Long time no blog! I hope someone’s missing me! Hee hee… I’m typing this on the bus home actually… I hope I dun miss my stop! =P haha…

School’s starting! Finally! I’m really missing school! I miss the lectures and tutorials with my khakis peishi, ning. yuxia! *muacks!* now I can finally go back to school to stick to you all! Dun run away!!! Hahaz… speaking of this… that lucky gal peishi is off to visit the city of my dreams! Taipei! Horrible gal! u din wait for me!!!*sniff sniff* remember my tai yang bing ok? Hee hee… like that den I will consider forgiving you for abandoning me for the first wk of school! Hahaz.

Hmmx… final year in NTU… a lot of scary things ahead of me, including, the most renowned HRM module, the seemingly friendly FYP… I’m really dreading HRM and I’m having absolutely no clue abt the latter… I know that IS bad… haiz… watching some of the nellers graduating is pretty heartwarming.. next year it will be my turn! Prepare flowers everyone! I want flowers! Hahaz... but I really wonder what will I be doing after grad. I have no idea myself… perhaps I am afraid to ask myself the question.. but I know I’m running out of time… argh… I hate to think!!!

All I’m sure about right now is that I want to go touring!!! Taiwan Taiwan Taiwan! I guess everyone who grows up with the long string of tw dramas would love to go visit the place… I even dream abt going there to stay for some time… but knowing my circumstances and financial status, I dun really believe that this will work… haiz.. if only life is a dream… but somehow other things seem to keep pulling me back… How many dreams do come true?

hmmph... shall go enter the world of harry potter instead... ciaoz!

放不下

2007-07-16T22:32:00.000+08:00

想著你的溫柔想著你的模樣我放不下
都說過了再見我們各自飛翔各自長大
抱緊愛會掙扎放開愛會心慌神也很忙
到底要實現哪個願望
離開你那麼傻可以後侮嗎

太空闲的时候，就会想起许多事。
许多的回忆，就算想忘记，也无法从记忆里赶走。
也许这就是所谓的长大吧。。。

期待永远不会发生的事情~~
我真的累了。
给自己的期限，就快到了。
我真的放得下吗？
放弃期待。。。
有点舍不得。

lalalalalalala

2007-06-23T23:14:00.000+08:00

lalalalalalalalala.....
haven blogged for SOOOOOO long! hahaz...

I.A. is over and the semesterly "fastest finger first" game at NTU has ended. I managed to get all the lessons i planned! but of cos not everyone is that lucky... hee hee... oh yes! sth even MORE lucky!!! I got 4 NDP (actual show) tix!!!! thru the eballoting! and to think i only registered on the LAST day LAST hour~ hee hee... aint I lucky? HEE HEE!

ouch my arm is aching~ I just got back home from work, badminton, dinner~ woo so eventful day... but i m dead beat... hahaz... but had alot of fun, especially since I haven't played badminton for sooooo long! I miss the VJ days when me yiing and joyce were in the badminton club! hee hee... at least i could play every sat~ then i was really freee! now weekends are so precious! haha...

I m so jealous of everyone who has gone far far away!!! I can't wait for MY grad trip! Taiwan Taiwan here i come! (one yr more!) and joyce~~~~ i'll miss ya badly! study hard and think of us ok!? *muacks*

haiz... I am feeling old~~~
can i be forever 16?

自私！

2007-05-06T20:03:00.000+08:00

对不起，我的朋友。

计划好的明天，竟然没了。
我以为可以跟大家一起过久违的时光，
但结果却好像并不是那样。
原来大家的生活步调都不一样了。
当我察觉到这点后，心里的不愉快让我忘了，
原来今天的计划也是我们为了彼此而特别安排的。

是我太自私了，让一时的冲动破坏了我们努力安排的今天。
对不起我的朋友们。

有人对我说过，友情是需要努力的经营的。
也许，是我不够努力吧。。。

lazie gal

2007-05-04T18:02:00.000+08:00

woo hoo... drop a quick post b4 i leave to meet sylvia darling...
wad? u mean i haven bin blogging for so long?! i din realise it actually... hahaz. but bin reading ppl's blog... hee hee...

ok! i have a room of my own now! hahaha... guess tt's y bin so lazie oops.. i mean busy to blog... jus moved in last nite n woo hoo! it's so cold even without the aircon! i guess i'm pretty lucky it's been raining alot lately... else i think i can't get to sleep...

gonna be on leave again on monday! plans: play on sat, havoc the whole of sunday nite den monday go cycling or sth liddat! hee hee.... jus took leave the last monday... so i think work's not tt bad actually... but it's time to start looking for a vacation job! else liddat wont have $ for alot of things~~ haha...

i'm missing school... or perhaps i m jus sianz of work... but no work = no $... so, i've gotta come to terms with it... have been spending n spending n spending... especially with the room n furniture... *poor* *sobs*

i'm actually still in the office... cant believe it... better off the comp n go~~~

>>>> hungry <<<<

10 weird things abt myself...

2007-04-18T14:21:00.000+08:00

Saw Joycelyn's post and decided to continue the tagging game... i guess i'm pretty sianz at work doing some pretty brainless stuff... (oops...) so well... here's the game...

Rule of the game: each player of this game starts off with 10 weird things or habits or little known facts about yourself. People who get tagged must write in a blog of their own 10 weird things or habits or little known facts as well as state this rule clearly. At the end you must choose 6 people to be tagged and list their names. No tagbacks!

1. I enter a world of my own whenever I start to watch any drama... and somehow I love to chiong everything at one go... so I can skip meals, skip bathing, skip sleep and even... skip mugging!! Haha... i started watching wei xiao pasta 2days b4 my first paper last sem and tada! i finished it right b4 leaving for the paper!! *applause*

2. But sometimes... or almost always... i enter a down period right after enjoying a drama... I wonder to myself... how is it that such things only happen in dramas and not in real life... I would tell myself it's all fake and they won't happen... and even if they do happen, it wont be me... so I really don't know whether I love shows or I hate them...

3. I've always been living in the same room as my parents! since young! I guess that's why I never grow up... but well... good news! I'm growing up! (eh... sounds dumb...) haha... i mean i'm going to move into a room of my own! =) but the room is too small for my liking... but i dun have a choice so i shall say i love my room! haha... still in the process of creating my room... so far i have a bed, a table, a small bookself... n NO MORE SPACE! haiz...

4. I love singing! Hmmx... mainly KTV i guess... but i dun go for alot of ktv...(no money) i "sing" all the time! - on the bus, at work, bathroom, blah blah blah... but *silent*... so i think i can do great lip-syncing! haha...

5. sometimes I *disappear* at parties / when there's alot of ppl... sometimes I go *quiet* and *sianz* and *moody* all of a sudden.. and i oso dunno why... sometimes i jus don't feel like talking.. sometimes i jus tot it best to be alone... even if i don't want to be... weird enough? *scratches head*

6. I dunno what I want to do... I doubt I can be a good engineer... I don't know what I can be good at... I just want to earn $... hee... I want to be tai-tai! but somehow until now... I haven found my "golden tortise"... haiz... I don't even know what I am interested in...

7. I would love to learn to play the piano, guitar, drums.... (the list goes on...) but somehow I'm too lazy to really learn... I bought myself a keyboard a few years ago! but till now it's as good as new... still rotting ard somewhere behind the cupboards... *shakes head* I REALLY want to learn!!!

8. I almost totally only listen to chinese songs... the only korean and jap songs are from some drama's OSTs... and english songs... they are not a hit with me... I have no idea why... I know there are plenty of nice english songs... but... they don't make it into my favourites list... *scratches head again* I don't understand myself sometimes...

9. I am totally freaked out by even the smallest creatures... yah i hate the sight of insects and animals... especially flying insects... I don't dare to get too close to them... far far away, no problem... i can still keep my cool... but u'll see that I start to walk CAUTIOUSLY and watch my steps CAREFULLY... while my eyes stare hard at the creature to make sure they dun come near... keep cool~~~~ (but i m not tt cool with xiao qiangs....)

10. I am constantly feeling poor!!! Even when I am working! somehow money's never enough! ok shall reveal my greatest wish ever!!! (only my dear sis knows abt this!!) My greatest wish is... to go shopping without worries... see sth i like, i can jus buy without freaking and calculating the price and "if i buy this, blah blah blah..." =)

yay! finally! wad a LONG post! so i AM weird afterall.. haha...
Next up: tag 6 lucky ppl... Hui, Peishi, Ning, Angeline, Elaine and Xuan!
(hope these ppl actually reads this!! hahaz...)

it's time to find excitement in my life

2007-03-27T13:47:00.000+08:00

hmmx... haven't been blogging for so long... hahaz... lazie lah...

Nth much to update.. mine's a boring life... serious budget deficits this month... i have no idea how come oso... haha... but no worries, pay is due today!!! =P though i think this month will be hard to tide through too.. too many things to buy... i've decided it's time to get my own territory in the house, so well.. it's a SMALL piece of land (oops i mean a small room)... so i'm trying hard to figure out how and what to put into the room. A territory of my own will hopefully give me more space, time and privacy... Gotta fork out some cash for some necessary furniture too... but worth it i guess...

met my ia tutor finally... he's hmm... okay lah... he seems to be super interested in the two guys though... nv as much as looked at me during the meeting. and ended up my godfather (my mentor actually) graded me!!! *freaky* i think he thinks that i am real stupid... (havent been able to answer any of his questions!) haiz... i rather my supervisor (who always ask me about KTV and perhaps knows nth of wat i have been doing) grade me, cos at least he dunno that i dunno so much things and he seems a nice man.. hahaz. godfather is nice too... very kind to me.. but i bet he thinks i m dumb...

I.A. has made me miss school... i miss the lectures n tutorials with peishi, yuxia, ning and chunchi... i miss staying in hall with my roomie.. i hope we get to stay roomies next year too... but... i wont blame ya if it din happen that way k, roomie? cos u dun have much choice too... *muacks*

it's time to find excitement in my life... i dun want my life to become a boring movie! (navy ad!)

meeting at 2pm! ciaoz!

恶作剧

2007-03-06T11:30:00.000+08:00

一个可笑的恶作剧，让我发现自己心里真正的想法。
应该认真去面对？应该给自己多一次机会吗？
我害怕再次伤心难过，我害怕重蹈覆辙。
我只是想找个答案。。。

yuan xiao jie!

2007-03-04T23:27:00.000+08:00

Happy yuan xiao jie!!!

wahahahahaha... haven blogged for a long time... to say the truth there's no real feeling of "yuan xiao" at all... none of the loud celebrations and good food etc... but it's a nice day to be at home chiong-ing show! wahahaha... *winks*

C.O.'s concert was wonderful! was so sad all my frenx cant cum, but luckily there's darling peishi n yuxia! *muacks* love u all! it would be great to have all my friends and family come support me... I love performing, and I love it more when my loved ones are there to watch me... so I've decided! you are all to come for my last concert with ntuco next year! I'm gonna force my whole family to come too! hee hee...

It was really tiring but it's all worth it! With every concert, I have come to realise new things every year. maybe it's jus that i am getting too old.. *haiz* but this is all so true...

was watching the korean show "bad family"... it's amazing how the characters found sincere love for the other family members even when theirs was in actual fact a "fake family". Even true families do not have the capabilities to forget their individual differences and shortcomings. Even true families do not forgive mistakes. Even true families may not be "complete". I hope for a true family, a "complete" family...

CNY

2007-02-22T10:31:00.000+08:00

Happy CNY!

dada! happie CNY! have bin telling myself i ought to blog since quite some time ago... but somehow... hee... so well... i'm going to tell story~ hahaz....

CNY was fun with nellers and assocs! =) went to wenyi's, haoyi's and ning's hse and ate the whole day! and surprisingly i was game enough to go watch midnight show (norbit) and den go to hall with yiing n angeline n haoyi! poor haoyi gotta go to lab in the morning while the three ladies (the three little piggies) slept till lunchtime and stayed in bed awhile longer playing blackjack and angeline was dancing cha cha with the green snake! lolz... C.O. ended pretty late and heng got mao to drive us back but in the end i still end up sleeping till 9am today... (oops i start work at 830am fyi)

oh yesh! happie Vday (abit belated le...) but i was too lazie to blog then so i m blogging now. haha.. i donated blood for the first time in my life on vday! *so noble* hahaz... donating blood is meaningful, but yah... bit pain (for maybe abt 5min) but worth it... though it felt funny having all the nurses telling me to lie down longer (they wont let me go) cos they say i was very pale... so i had another 15min zzz-ing! hee hee... =) wellz... hope everyone had a great Vday! (the rest of my vday was.... sianz...)

okok... happie CNY again for all! hope u have a great year ahead and lotsa hong baoz!

sianz

2007-02-04T13:46:00.000+08:00

SUNDAY~

it's SUNDAY afternoon! and guess what i am doing? mapling... hahaz... bit sianz hor? but ok lahz... maple is cute n ok to play to spend time...

hmmz yest went qi's bday party! he's finally 21!! hahaz.. act like an adult ok!? i owis feel he's very "xiao di di"... haha... hmmx stupid yuhui greeted me with "stupid sheya" the first thing i see him! *idiots* and the most stupid thing is i proved myself to be so dumb... was trying to scare angeline from behind when i bu xiao xin slipped and fell... (cos the slope was sandy and my shoes can slip very well.. haiz) and now my ankle hurts... hahaz... can walk.. but dun think can run n jump yet... hahaz... *ouch* dumb sheya... 恶人有恶报！haha...

we spent the nite having supper at chomp chomp! nan de my roomie was onz! hahaz.... long time since we had a neller's supper! chomps best! =) den got home pretty late n tired... i miss the days we can go out for supper or go out chiong or ktv until late hours den jus go back to hall... hee... staying at home makes me wan to act guai in front of my parents... they dun like the idea of mi drinking or staying out late at nite... guess all parents are like that... hahaz...

Friday went out for team lunch with my colleagues and fellow IA students... n guess what? we ended up at the same table as the big bosses and my sup... (cos no one wants to sit with us.... haha... haiz... poor us... we dun really fit in anywhere...) and well... i think i was going crazy repeating my answers to the same few questions... so how's work? where do you stay? do you stay in hostel? y did u choose enginneering? blah blah blah... was very tempted to sing there... (got ktv!) but i aint very keen to sing for entertainment while everyone i dunno eats... and very paiseh oso cos noone except my sup sang... hahaz... well... all i can say is... that lunch was so *stressful* haha... but the food is REALLY good... i heard each person abt 50+... freaky~ we had about 40 ppl there... so well.. do your maths! =P

shall go for CO tomorrow... die i think i nid alot of practice! it's less than a month to the concert! *faintz* and i haven start selling tix! work work work~ busy busy busy~

<<花样少年少女>>:
"Travel helps people relax and open up 這就是最好表白的時候... "
...................................骗人的.................................................

knock off!

2007-02-01T17:11:00.000+08:00

as i predicted, i m REALLY very zuo bo today~ i m now... em... preparing (?) to go home... jus too paiseh to leave when everyone around me is still so busy~ hahaz...

i guess i shall fill my day up tml by reading up other ppl's blogs! (hmm... discretely of cos...) wahahahahahaha....

The meaning of life is to give life meaning.

work!

2007-02-01T09:30:00.000+08:00

wohoo! hie! the lazie pig is finally blogging again... haha...

pretty zuo bo at work (even more zuo bo den usual), cos most of the engineers are really busy these few days... i expect to be more zuo bo tomorrow and maybe beginning of next week.. *haiz*

went for C.O. (finally!) but that was last week... this week? hmm... rao le wo ba! the travelling is really tiring... will go again next week for sectionals instead... hee... my roomie has a new roomie! so that means i have no where to stay when i go C.O. *haiz* more travelling...

anw, gotta do "paper work"... *sigh* ciaoz!

I.A.-ing

2007-01-19T10:02:00.000+08:00

woo hoo! it's been A YEAR since i blogged! (wahahaha)

ok... merely 2 weeks into I.A. and I am slacking really big time.. it explains why i am here blogging... stupid yiing kip niaoing mi to go CO and to update my blog... lalalalalala... ok i decided to go C.O. finally (zzzzz) perhaps nex wk... awww... i hate the travelling.. still debating to stay in hall or go home late at nite after C.O.

C.O. - been mia for so long i almost forgot i ever existed in it... oops.. jus kidding lahz... i miss CO alrite.. miss yiing too, n miss peishi oso... miss haoyi SL, miss nellers and associates... okok.. tt's y i m cuming... zzzzz (i hate to travel!)

I.A. - hmm... i m learning alot, but i m really tired also... everyday oso wanna zzzz when i reach home... weirds.. i m becoming like a pig... jus longing for more sleep everyday... hahaz... i jus wan my school fees back... (i pay the school, the school pays the company, the company pays me...)(still my money in the end...)

ok... I.A. time dun slack so obvious... (oh i finished reading harry potter and the half-blood prince ebk while at work! hee...)

ciaoz!

happy new year!

2006-12-31T01:15:00.000+08:00

happie new year!

SUDDENLY, it's the last day of 2006! in less than 24 hrs we will say goodbye to 2006 and start the new year!

so many things have happened in 2006...

NTUCO concert
it was a FULL HOUSE! (i lurve reminding everyone!) What a PROUD ticketing officer i am, togather with yiing yng! The preparation was TEDIOUS and i remembered how i freaked and really wanted to give up cos of all the performaances (yes there was SO much esp that year and that period of time!) plus the at-first-really-pathetic ticket sales (less than 50% when it was less than 2 wks to the concert...) and the euphoria that took over me when i realised we dont have enough tickets to sell on the day before the concert!!!! lol... a great accomplishment! =)
(too bad haoyi SL wasnt with us then, but it's good to know he enjoyed himself in shanghai! =) i remember how sad we all were when we went to send him off~~~)

NTUCO Beijing Trip
beijing was WONDERFUL! the company was great (of cos! u'll always be crazy with the nellers!) it's the FIRST time in my life i took an airplane! (the pressure in my ears really made me felt horrible~ it is HARD to yawn sometimes... haha) the trip really made me feel a greater sense of belonging and "togetherness" (is it the word?) with the orchestra... =) I also did the most courageous thing i ever did... It took so much of my courage and drained so much of my energy and happiness... but well! i did not and will never regret it... this is all part of life...

Hall + school
hall 11 and hall 15... surprisingly, i prefer hall 11... minus the distance, and the canteen, hall 11 actually makes me feel more comfortable than hall 15!! i like the wind, the serenity and the tv reception! school? jus as boring... luckily i have ning n peishi n yuxia with me everyday. i've learnt to go for lectures and tutorials alone (i STILL prefer someone to pei wo really...) i've learnt to gossip and spectaculate relationships between people jus by observing where and how they seat themselves in the LT... (lol... tt has become me n peishi's fav pasttime in 12/17 lectures) Results?! of cos i'm happie =) the latest sem's results made me MORE happie! well... since i've bin so hardworking this sem, i deserve my great results! =) i will miss my roomie when i go for IA starting jan~ roomie~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Celebrating 21 years!
21.. the magical number... the year you become an adult, you become responsible for your own life. the year you spend all your money on everyone else's presents! haha.... but it's the SPECIAL year! i lurve all the parties~ janey's, pammie's, jane ong's, Elaine's, yingyan's, Sam's, and MY party! hee hee... of cos plus yiing's! =) we're all adults now!!! and there are so many more 21 years ahead of us! all the best for all of us!! ^^

Darlings
wooo~~~ i miss my darlings! i haven seen brainies for SOoooo long~~~~ miss ya all badly!!! janey must be sneezing in Australia now.... haha... let's meet up when janey is back!!! *muacks* *muacks* *muacks* i really miss ya all!!! it seems like yesterday we were giving ourselves furnie names... [wonkey, donkey, monkey, zonkey] [lost brainie, no screw brainie, empty brainie, no brainie] i miss our vj days... not the sch, but the days i get to see you gals everyday...
darlings of the year::: xuan and elaine!!!!! thanks to you gals i manage to cum out of my own misery~ thanks to you gals i always have someone to call or jus to bother when i feel like it and thanks to you gals i now have GREAT expectations for the year ahead... =) in a good way lah... *muackx* *muackx*
and also another darling all time (i noe she dun read my blog... she never reads anyone's.. but well...) thanks to sylvia... a fren of 12 years... you know me inside out! and i know we'll be frenz forever...

wooo wad a Long~~~~ post... it took me very long to write it ok... dun complaint lah.. hee... anyway... 2006 has been good~ now let's all look forward and move on! time waits for no one...

best wishes for 2007! ^^

merry xmas!

2006-12-25T21:56:00.000+08:00

merry xmas!

may all ur christmas wishes come true and may u have a wonderful year ahead!

i finally let myself go beyond where i usually allow myself. but even so, i did not push all the way to 100%... i guess i stopped when i still have 5% soberness ~ in order to save all the trouble and uncomfort... hahaz... ok... yy went further, tt's y i guess she must be having a worse hangover den me~ hee hee... she's probably zzz-ing le...

it was interesting for me... i was totally conscious of wad i was doing, totally "high", talking even louder than usual (oops..haha), not walking very straight (but at least i could still walk... still get wad i wan, still make it back safely...) and i remember it! hahaz... and i had a very comfortable pillow! thanks to syh~ hahaz... (but not without uncountable disturbances...)

no more malaysia trip for me liaoz, but at least now i am looking for another night out this new year! =) go plan it, SL! ^^ (i better start to train up! hee hee...)

山谷中

2006-12-22T22:25:00.000+08:00

有人告诉我，
我就像在一个山谷中，
虽然很深，但我很幸运我的山谷有个梯级。
只要我愿意爬，总有一天我会爬出这个山谷。
这个人是我的曙光，让我看到了梯级。

也许，
其实我不想爬出山谷。。。
我害怕山谷外的世界，
我害怕别人讨厌我，
我害怕得不到别人的爱，
我害怕得不敢去碰那梯级。

有时我真得很想就这样，
永远呆在深深的山谷中。。。

hols

2006-12-11T14:06:00.000+08:00

Holidays!

yoho!!! it's 10days after examz, and life's good with hols! =)

bin spending quality time with frenz and family.. bin going out every other day and bin slacking at home every non-other day... haha... jus spent the weekend partying at my roomie's place! it's so fun! steamboat, mahjong, xbox, audition, ron.. and the most surprising thing is we actually played monopoly until 5am and we were still super high! haha... i conclude haoyi's luck is super good.. he won every game! argh.. even if we ALL gang up against him... hahaz... everyone was super tired yesterday but well.. it was fun! roomie's house is so nice... feels like a high class chalet.. cos of the aircon =P and i guess we really created alot of noise esp during monopoly! haha...

jus signed maxonline on sat! (yay!) -- no more dialup, finally! now i can play audition at home! cool!!!! (but somehow today it either hangs or kicks mi out... hmm... i'll try again another time...) it costs quite a bit.. i better start saving up to pay bills... and guess wad!? i STILL haven got a handphone! (oh.. wads new?!) so well... i nid $$!!!!

k lahz.. shall continue to enjoy my maxonline! =) enjoy hols everyone! psss.... brainies! when r we going out?! miss ya... xiao lao po! miss ya too!!!! enjoy yourself there ok?! =)

examz

2006-11-25T00:06:00.000+08:00

5 down, 2 more to go

yay! 5 papers down, 2 more to go... after exams i'm gonna do so many things i cant count anymore... hahaz... i'm looking forward to next fri le!!! but the problem is how to survive Monday's paper... so far my 5 papers are, as usual, unsatisfactory... i really pray my results are ok... it doesnt help when u start to watch a drama (wei xiao pasta) and finish it within two days... when u start on the day b4 ur first paper... haha... i knew this was going to happen... but i still let it happen... now i have rewatched and m still rewatching... cos i dun have anything better to watch liaoz... hahaz.. i m so dead...

i miss my roomie... whenever i m alone in hall... i hate to go makan alone esp in the hall canteen... and all the nellers are so far away... so i owis camp in the room and become my hermit.. i munch on bread n biscuits n vitasoy for all my meals, with chocs as snacks... lol.. bad lifestyle.. lonely and unhealthy...

jus back fr suntec after a long awaited nellers outing... in the midst of examz though... hahaz.. but i figured i wont want to mug anymore after my paper today... according to past experience i end up doing everything but mugging... haha... nex paper is super er xin so i really better be serious abt it fr tmr onwards..

不知不觉，就已经过了四个月了。。。
生日前两个月，我经历了一生中最难过最痛苦的回忆。
生日后的两个月，我似乎已经痊愈了。
也许这只是自我安慰，但我真的很想把它从心里去除。
谢谢这几个月开那么支持我的朋友们。。。
或许是因为大家都在同一个时间感受到相同的痛处，
所以我们才能从彼此找到力量。
能有你们我想上天已经对我太好了。
真心的希望我们都会找到属于自己的幸福，
真心的希望我们会一辈子做最好的朋友。

wishing...

2006-11-12T23:47:00.000+08:00

~wishes~

sometimes i hate wishing...

wishes that won't come true...

i wish i wish i wish...

我不想哭。。。我要更坚强。。。

examz time!

2006-10-31T14:18:00.000+08:00

Examz Time!!!

... and i still feel like slacking everyday! haha... i still want audition, i still dun feel like getting out of bed every morning... i still hate lessons.. wahahha... my mugger mission is still in the fridge... i better try to drag it out soon.. wahahaha...

ureca is pretty chim... but still managable right now... even though i still dunno how to do alot of things... but hopefully will learn abit more... haha... i still have yet to buy a phone... the more i wait, the more pretty phones appear in the market! haha... and i still want an mp3 player... so i shld do "diverse investment"... (i nid more $$!)

miss all my darlings! missing darling brainies, missing elaine n xuan darlings, missing joanne laopo, missing all the neller outings... after exams we must all go out n play! =)

...3 months, and i think i am recovering... or so i hope...

21st bday!

2006-09-26T01:16:00.000+08:00

Thank you! *muacks*

Thank you for all who came!!! Thanks for coming, Thanks for the gifts, Thanks for bringing all the smiles to me! =) Thanks to those who couldnt come but i received your well wishes n hugs n kisses! =) I was really super busy that day, but I felt really happy that everyone spared the time to come!

I enjoyed all the "happy birthdays"! Thanks once again for making me feel like I'm a star! =) *muacks* I wished I had more time to sing with everyone and say goodbye and thank you to everyone... *thanks again!*

yummie! this is GOOD... (thanks mummy!)

mei nus! pammie joyce jane sylvia!

my fav niece n nephew!! =) aint they cute?!

peiling is so sweet!

brainies!!! *muacks* *muacks* *muacks*

pris n peiling r gd frenz after jus one song! =)

i lurve my cake! looks gd, and tastes better! yummie! i lurve hazelnuts!

i have cake AND flowers! =) great combi!

mum n dad n sis n mi! =)

pri sch frenz! oops... there's onlie sylvia darling! hee hee *muacks*

st nix galz!

vjc ppl! =)

ntuco! plus our two future members! =)

ntu engine ppl... vs

... ntu non-engine ppl

ntu eee gang!

ntuco tanpo!

hey tt's my new nametag!

jing n yuqin! late!

elaine says this can be my matchmaking photo! *haha*

osim!

my roomie! *muacks*

aint it romantic? city space is cool! =)

pretty ladies (and pretty toilet rite?!)

guess who were the photographers? =)

Thank you List:
Mummy + Daddy >> thanks for preparing the food! *muacks* and thanks for supporting me all this while...
Sis Hui>> thanks for the company n help in the process of planning =)
Elaine >> thanks for being my beauty consultant! you are the one who made me a princess! =)
Xuan >> gosh! the equinox was the best part of the night! thanks xuan mummy!
Roomie Wenyi >> thanks for the wonderful idea of the photo album n thanks for printing all those pix to brighten up the album!

thanks for all the presents! i really lurve them! special thanks to brainies for the super chio swatch watch! n thanks to nellers n gang for the hp voucher! thanks to osim ppl for the precious moments figurine! it's so pretty! =) i feel like i'm a greedy pig... these pressies are so exp! thanks thanks thanks!
*muacks* lurve ya all!

freezing

2006-09-18T21:15:00.000+08:00

freezing...

awwwww... actually I think i m more like frozen, nt freezing... bin staying in hall the whole day (oops... wad abt lessons?) and guess how productive my day is?

bin mapling whole day, read abt 3 pages of notes, listening to songs, read the same 3 pages of notes, more mapling, and read the 3 pages of notes again... (dotz...)

abit sad some ppl cant make it for my bday... but really touched by darlings for putting in so much effort into my bday... thanks to elaine! she's my honoured beauty consultant! thanks to xuan mummy... i cant wait for sat nite outing to equinox (iz tt how u spell it?) thanks to darling brainies n gang... but pls dun get me a hp... it's too expensive... as i said, my bday list is purely write "shuang"!!!! it's more like my wishlist for this yr... hahaz... jus get mi sth within ur budgets and sth u like n i'll like too! =) *muackz* lurve ya lots!!!

i want to mug! but somehow i cant.... argh... i'll start tmr (oops did i hear tt b4? haha)

kss

2006-09-14T23:13:00.000+08:00

去爱吧如同从来没有受过伤害一样
Love like you’ve never been hurt before

跳舞吧如同没有任何人注视你一样
Dance like there’s no one watching you

唱歌吧如同没有任何人聆听一样
Sing like no one’s listening

工作吧如同不需要金钱一样
Work like you don’t need money

活着吧如同今日是末日一样
Live like today’s your last day

Bday Bday!

2006-09-11T10:51:00.000+08:00

less than 2 weeks more...

to MY BDAY!! hee hee... lots to bz... (still...) haiz... hopefully everyone will cum!!! =) oh yeah.. m now erm... in psycho lecture... listening (?!) and lappie-ing (yeah...) will have a psycho quiz later n i m far far away from even half prepared... zzzz.... i can see my mugger mission going down the drain... argh...

ok... hmmm... lots of ppl have bin asking wad i want for my bday... hee hee... time to start putting up my bday wish list! wahahahahah... but i so shy... nt so thick-skin as to say wad i really wan... eg. handphone, mp3 player, precious moments figuring, new lappie, new desktop plus broadband for my home, blah blah blah... oops... wahahaha... hey dun close the window leh... i m nt tt unfrenly lah... wahhahahaha...

okok... how abt this list? =)
1. handphone - i want a SLIDE PHONE! (i lurve LG chocolate - but i dun like its functions...) so samsung ones r nt bad! (hee hee... okok... this IS expensive... jus write for shuang! haha)
2. MP3 Player! - i lurve sony's!!! the flash 1G MP3 is 179 (wooo...) and the hard disk 6G one is 299 (wooooooo......) hahaz... (okok... another one write for shuang de...)
3. Precious Moments figurine! wahahaha... i lurve this one with a pretty gal holding a bouquet of flowers... it's called "may love blossom whereever you go" but it's expensive (quite) and pretty useless... (impractical in my sis' view)
4. watch!! - how abt a swatch watch?! (woo... ok! dun kill mi! jus kidding... they r too darn expensive lah i know!)
5. accessories! - wld love necklaces or earrings or bracelets! =) i trust everyone will get mi nice pretty stuff! wahahahahaha...
6. new bag! - would love a tote bag! or handbag (always wanted a white one)
7. can gimme huge stuffed toys! (ok.. this is impractical too...) but sometimes they r really cute! wahahahaha... hmmm i dun mind doraemon (even though i have 2 oreadie!) or the black/white pigs (oops i dunno their names!) or the green tortoise! (no pink or brown ones pls... i like the greenies most.. oh n as usual i dunno their names...)
8. ok... jus a last item.. in case there ARE really super rich frenz out there... u know, i lurve gold bars?! (nt those chocolate gold bars pls...) wahahahahahaha...

wooo... i m so thick-skin! oops i mean i m so shy n humble! =) wahahahahha... *blushes* hope this helps somehow... so u all can avoid banging ur heads against the walls looking for something for She Ya the Great... *smilez* ok even though the list was no much help.. heehee...

23rd Sept 2006, saturday, 2-7pm, Hougang CC ktv... be there! =)

mugger mission 1

2006-08-23T21:39:00.000+08:00

Mugger Mission 1

yo hi!!! i am finally blogging!!!! =) wahahahaha... how's my mugging? hee hee... bad.... mugger misson 1 has sorta failed... not totally though, but at least i m attending all my lectures and tutorials, including the make-ups!!! see! great improvement from last sem already!!!! yay! i m such a wonderful gal!!!! (guai bah!)

the bad thing abt mission 1 that i have yet to trully accomplish - to do my tutorials faithfully... its already SO tiring to attend 24AUz worth of lessons every wk! i'm already dying... so tired!!! ok... i'm trying so hard to read my notes and reading le...but of cos i cant kip up... oops my roomie jus commented that although i go for all my lectures, i m always late(ok... i cant get outta bed in time)... but at least i think i dun sleep in lectures as much as she do... surprisingly i m awake for most lectures!!! =)

and to make mugger mission 1 even more challenging... my addiction to drama has been acting up again!!!!!!! I jus cant stop watching "My lovely samsoon"!!!!! thanks to the wonderful tv reception at hall 11... now i come back every night and spend my time:
1. you-tube: watch kim sam soon
2. maple: kill kill kill
3. 10pm - 11pm: Kim Sam Soon on chn U!
4. you-tube: more kim sam soon!!!
i m jus so addicted already... anyone has the show?!?!?!?!?!?!?! help mi!!! let mi watch!!!!

birthday party will become a reality! ( i hope!) have yet to book the place... but i think i will do it sometime this wkend... then i will officially announce and sms everyone! =) do come!!! 23rd sept, sat (start of mid term break for NTU!), 2-7pm, Hougang CC ktv... i decided shall get 4 rooms instead of jus 3... so come early! dun let my rooms be too empty leh! haha...

birthday party... so much to plan, so much to spend, so much to do, so much to worry... hahaz... but i think the memories are worth alot more... =)

我想我可以就像你一样，当作什么都没发生。。。但现在的我，还做不到。我最近才发现，原来我比想象中脆弱。

mugger mi!!!!

2006-08-11T01:32:00.000+08:00

i m RESOLVED to become a MUGGER this sem!!!!

yesh i m! do not doubt it... this is SHE YA the great and yesh i have decided to be a MUGGER!!! (hurrays!!!) too bad this din cum 4 sems ago, but don't worry i will be so hardworking that i can makeup for all the past sems!!!

too lazie to blog n post pix... sry i noe i promised... next wk maybe... when i take time off my mugging... hahaz...

i am going to attend all my lectures n tutorials. i am going to do my tutorials. i am going to read my notes. (oh gosh can i really do all this?! i'll try!!! ^^ )

i'm doing this because i don't want to think about stuff i don't want to think about... i might as well channel all these energy to fulfill more worth-while tasks... =)

down...

2006-07-31T00:56:00.000+08:00

down...

ok... yesh i've been feeling really down this past week... i feel like all the confidence i've ever had is slipping away... i feel as though i'm all broken up inside... but i know i can survive. i know my wounds will heal... it jus takes time... i nid more happiness... (oh n more $ too, pls! hee...)

2006-07-25T02:31:00.000+08:00

明知道会后悔的事，就不应该去做。
我想，我不只伤害了自己，也伤害了他。

i'm back!!!

2006-07-24T14:22:00.000+08:00

i'm back!!!

woo.. m finally back in sinapore! =) great to be home! did ya all miss mi?! hee hee... beijing is wonderful if u take away the hot weather, horribly salty food, bad air, lousy traffic, and enormous amounts of walking... loved the shopping! ^^

watch out for fotoz when i m free enough to upload n post! =)

没有时间了

2006-07-14T02:25:00.000+08:00

我想我真得很失败。
两年前，我以为我还有很多时间。

直到最近我才发现，
时间已经过了那么多。
直到最近我才发现，
情况似乎和当时一样。
直到最近我才发现，
原来已经没有那么多时间了。。。

我要怎么做，才能让时间停止？

h11 comp room

2006-07-11T16:17:00.000+08:00

met a nice gentleman in the hall 11 computer room... (was too bored in the room watching CNA... but the aircon here is down...) we chatted abit, and erm... he sorta tried to know me... but i have a hard time catching what he was trying to say.. i think it's cos of the accent... he gave me his email address but of cos i don't intend to email him or anything... think i wont use the comp room tt often to see him anyway... (i hope!) it sure is wierd being in a dark comp room with someone i jus met barely an hour ago and asking about what i feel as a singaporean and how would i feel to actually go out on the road with a negro like him... i m not being racist (i am not!) but it jus feels wierd... maybe cos i m too shy.. he's over 10 yrs older than me! and i dun exactly feel charmed by someone who's "determined, courageous, and humble" (that's what he says...)

ok.. not a very good way to speak of someone i jus met... he's a nice guy lah... with much wisdom... (k lah.. i m stupid...) glad to have met such an interesting person here in hall 11... =)

I don't know what I should do... would it be better to be kept as a secret? Is it really just admiration and not fondness? I just learnt something today... "first admiration, then like, and finally love"

Brainies outing!!!!

2006-07-05T23:16:00.000+08:00

Brainies Outing!!!

Finally! the long awaited brainies trip!!! =) joyce looks so skinny after she came back from her london trip (jealous!) AND before tt, her korea trip (MORE jealous)... Clare went london too, and Janey maybe going HK (jealous!!!!!) while poor me will melt in Beijing soon... haha... okok... Beijing is good enuff... seems like there's so much stuff for mi to prepare for my first ever china trip, and my first ever airplane ride! feeling bit lazie... haha... first i nid to move hall first! hee hee...

The pretty brainies!!!! *muacks* i lurve ya all darlings!!!

Janey is SOOOO cute!!!! her HUGE eyes with our yuen yang bing! ^^

Hey joyce u r supposed to make a funny face!!! =P

mi n joyce's shoes... wad can i say? great minds think alike! =D

Janey's lok kok shoe with a HOLE!!! (and her ankle socks... she insists on getting them into the photo! haha)

The ghostly brainies..... gonna miss ya all!!!

Till we meet again!!! muacks!!!!

lala!!!

2006-06-30T01:44:00.000+08:00

hihi... k i realised i m so lazie when it comes to blogging... hahaz... paiseh lah... i AM lazie i admit it...

wooow so fast n i'm left with abt a mth of school hols... minus CO trip, minus moving hall, minus CO practs (if i turn up)... oh... like nt much time left... sianz... i haven really got to enjoy n hols is almost over?! sigh...

thanks darling brainies... miss ya all so much... joyce u back in sgp le? m so jealous!!! i oso wish to go London n Korea! sniff sniff... n janey oso nv chio mi go out... must be too bz rite!? haha... watashiwa oso really rotting at home... hee... the only person i really go out with is Elaine lor... she's the one who's dragging mi out of the comfort of my rotting in my cosy little hdb flat... haha... but den.. without her i guess i would spend even more time rotting and will be even more "no life"... haha... okok thanks darling elaine... =) *muacks*

C.O. has bin... haiz... i dunno how to say it... i guess i m dreading the travelling... i m so darn lazie lah... i hate leaving home to go for CO... (no like anyone there misses my company...) but i guess it's ok during practice... hmmmph... but liddat i will miss my superband!!! argh... i lurve soul n j3... hopefully juzB or milupin cums back this wk... =)

ai qing mo fa shi is nice! but too similar to wang zi bian qing wa... n my mom loves goong... she can watch n rewatch n not get bored... hahaz...

2006-06-19T01:07:00.000+08:00

ok... say i m bored, cos i m, blogging twice in a nite... i cant find better things to do... and being online is... well, shld i say rare for mi... n i still dunno wad to do! haha... talking on msn... a fav pasttime of so many ppl i noe... is becoming v depressing for mi...

k lah... sorry for darlings angeline, yiing and elaine... well, who else talks on msn with mi lor? sometimes i dun c the point of going online to "talk" when we c each other so often (?)
haiz... say i m wierd... i come on msn... maybe i m looking for someone to chit chat, but well... it makes me feel all the more sianz.... sry darlings again... hahaz...

hmmm... sometimes i wonder why m i who i m? why m i not like the people i noe? why do i feel like i have frenz, but i still feel lonely all the same? i dunno who i can find when i nid a talk... i dunno who i can find to accompany me through the lonely nights in hall... i dunno who i can find if i jus wish to chill out... i dunno who to call when i feel like talking... perhaps i feel that i m worthy of noone's attention... i dunno.... why shld anyone bother abt mi?

M.i.A.-ing

2006-06-19T00:28:00.000+08:00

yoho... bin mia for v long... since end of DIP... have bin rotting at home... very sianz very bored... but interestingly, i am enjoying it quite abit... hee hee... ok so i AM a pig...

well... sometimes i think i am tt type of person who can jus stay cut off from the world... i jus nid to stay at home... hee... no job no money but it's ok... i dun really wan to go out too... no money to spend, no where to go and nobody to go with... haha... i jus get this feeling that noone misses mi jus as i miss noone... (isolating myself) (hee)

ok... but think cos home has so many people... mommy is at home everyday now... so yesh, home's very noisy everyday... *she can scream at so many things i m so amazed by her... oh i used the wrong word... it's *annoyed... haha...

k... i wan to get a job, but i m like onlie free for... hmmm... i cant even say a mth... with the CO china trip rite in the mid of my remaining hols... haiz... i'll try looking for temp or one-off job k? any lobang?

what do you do when you feel lonely? what is it like to fall in love? what is it like to get used to life with a special someone?

maybe i dun look like that kind... but i do get lonely.... sometimes...

morning!!!

2006-06-05T08:53:00.000+08:00

yoho! DIP is ending soon!!! after this presentation... hee...

dunno how cum become the presenter for the other grp... haiz... tot can slack but seems no.. haha... after this can go out play (finally)... hee

yesterday went out with elaine... went bugis walk walk... super alot of pple!!! argh... tried to find the mei tt peishi darling bought... but there r so many shops there i really dunno which one got... in the end oso cannot find the special "korean mei"... n the weather so super hot i cant stand it... wahahahahaha... so in the end anyhow buy mei... hee... okok... i m lousy...

den i went home with elaine... she wanna watch goong... den suddenly got fever... n feel v hot n sick for the rest of the nite... haiz... but now ok liaoz lah... hopefully... hee... today came to lab early to perpare for the presentation but seems like i'm too early haha... k lah... they nid time to warm up i guess... wateva...

shall go back to emm... preparing... hahaz... wish mi luck!

DIP...

2006-05-22T17:33:00.000+08:00

boo! DIP has been, literally - horrible! argh... first was being "thrown" into the project with no guidance what-so-ever from the prof, next came our hopes of several highly ambitious ideas which the lab techs confirmed we will NEVER get it done by the short span of 5 weeks.... when we finally decided on what to do, (thanks to the lab techs for helping us find ideas) we face the huge hurdle of ASSEMBLY language... argh... the only parts i guess i enjoyed was the shopping at Sim Lim for components and motor (oh i think we got cheated... the motor cost us $15!!)

we finally got our hardware done (almost) - hopefully by tomorrow.. haha.. now the big problem is... our propeller clock can't exactly do a clock display right now (problems with programming a clock...) haiz... i can imagine how our project will turn out... haiz... (not to mention the other 2 groups in the lab seems to be so pro...)

okok... too late le.. lab tech chasing us out liao.. ciaoz~~~

holidays??

2006-05-04T23:52:00.000+08:00

yoho! hey ppl! ok so was missing in action for quite a while... last entry was hmm... sad... but hey ppl i'm hmmm better (?) already... minus the fact that i screwed up my last 2 papers *esp the last one* haiz...

okok... long story (not really) but my mommy got into hospital on last tues nite den i only got to know it at like 7am wed morning... so i onlie effectively slept for 4 hrs for tt paper (yawnz)... den i went to the hospital to pei my mommy after my wed paper and also spent the day there on thurs... den my fri paper was... haiz... now REALLY must pray very hard for tt... okok... my own fault actually.. not exactly no time or hospital is a bad place to study but more like i got no mood to study at all... argh... i ended up "blanking out" haiz... wad a failure i m...

anw, mommy bin out of hospital since sat... so not to worry darlings... but i bin accompanying her everyday everywhere, so i dun really have a life rite now so sorry ppl... hospital, clinic, hougang mall... my latest hangouts... n the wonderful thing is mommy only goes to super exciting places like her favourite NTUC n market... while everytime i spot any thing i wan to c she'll drag mi away with "dun waste time". haiz... so u can guess how entertained i m everyday, everywhere with mommy... k lah tt's such a boring story... maybe after she feels better n not giddy anymore den i can jio u all go out! =) remember me hor! hee...

holiday ending liaoz... argh n i haven even went out to play at all!!!! argh... but these days i bin at home n guess wad i bin doing??? wahahahahaha... PS games n PC games! cool xia... but STILL... i cant stand the connection... kips dcing how i play my maple? (haha.. i think i have no rite to complain... but well...) hee =P next i wanna watch GONG (palace) the korean show adapted fr this korean comic which i like quite a bit... =) anyone got?? *hint hint*

DIP starting next monday... left 3 more days to play (or slave)...

miss ya all darlings... *muacks*

feeling super down...

2006-04-06T00:31:00.000+08:00

i dunno y i'm feeling so sad... i jus feel like crying my heart out...

so many things have happened recently. both happy and sad things... suddenly i feel that i dun exactly know the people around me... i guess i'm not as close as i think i m to my frenz... it hurts to c a really close fren being so sad, but i cant bring myself to ask... dun think i'm meant to know... but it hurts my heart... it hurts jus as bad to realise certain events only after it had happened... when noone ever said anything how m i supposed to know? *haiz* maybe it's all my fault...

i tell myself there's nth to worry abt, and there's nth i can do... but it doesnt stop the unease in my heart... sometimes i jus feel like giving up the exams... how can i try to study while i know she's in pain? how can i fuss abt idiot stuff like transformers when all i want is to be with her, make sure she is nt lost in the hosp, understands what the docs r talking abt, is taking her medicine on time, eating her meals on time, getting enuff sleep... i jus hate myself!

i dun like being hall alone either... it makes me feel so lonely i feel like crying all i can... i feel like using up all the tears i have so tat i will nv have to cry again... sometimes i wish i can find someone to cry to... i guess i'm tried trying to kip the "happy sheya" in front of everyone... but i dun like the idea of spoiling everyone's mood...

- jus let me cry... it'll be over soon -

exam alert!

2006-04-02T23:24:00.000+08:00

Examz in LESS than TWO weeks!!! jiayou everyone!!
jiayou to those having their examz earlier den mi too! esp to claris n joyce darling... JIAYOU!

ok... bin missing in action for very long again... sorry sorry... bin lazie n my lappie went for a holiday at eight flags again... haha... den after it came back it lost all its memory so i have bin busy looking for ways to help it regain its past memories... ok... i m jus crapping... it got a new harddisk liaoz... dunno to be happy or sad, but at least i have got back most of my stuff so it's ok... =)

cant wait for examz to be over! (it has nt even started!) i am gonna start camping in hall from tonite onwards.... oh tt means ANOTHER FOUR WEEKS before i go home! i duno if i can tahan tt long... i cant imagine mi eating FOUR whole WEEKS of canteen food... ARGHhhhhhh... ahhhhhhh.... help mi! (pss.. i jus spent quite some $$ stocking up food... choc, sweets, biscuits, cup mee... i dun think i will die out tt fast! hee hee)

okok... i shldnt be wasting time here act... but feel so sianz hall alone so i decided to come complain... gotta go off to MUG for tmr's quiz (quiz again!) so tada! buaiz n wish mi luck! =)

Woo Hoo! back in Action!

2006-03-14T18:41:00.000+08:00

yo ho! yiing complains i m still stuck at CNY! hahaz.. okok.. so here i m.. FINALLY updating my dearie blog.. haven bin blogging... almost forgot how to log in! haha..

NTUCO concert was a WOO HOO! FULL HOUSE! *phew* lucky me.. thanks to everyone who made the MirAcLe Happen! thanks to my darling eLaIne and my dear sis for cuming to support! =) next up: NTUCO Beijing trip in July! =) cant wait cant wait!!! *SL! miss ya alot woo...* hee hee...

my darling Xuan oso leaving for switzerland soon... sob sob... *jealous* can u pack mi into your luggage so tt i can go too?! =) hee hee... okok... i'll miss u! *muacks* *muacks*

CO has bin taking so much of my time tt i almost got no life... FINALLY concert is over (FULL HOUSE!) and guess wad? it's time for quizes quizes plus... the huge EXAMx! haiz... sigh...time to start mugging le lor.. jus realised exams iz.. 4 weeks away... haiz... everyone, JIAYOU! =)

i cant wait to go out with everyone again after this irritating busy period! darlings! must jio mi go out after exams k?! *muacks*! =)

HAPPY CNY!

2006-02-04T16:44:00.000+08:00

yo! yeah~ very very long never blog le... almost forgot how to do it! wahahahaha... i know u all miss mi so much!!! *muacks*

HAPPY CNY!

i lurve cny hols really.. the only days i m "CO free" and can sleep sleep sleep and eat eat eat... haha... hope u all enjoyed your cny too! =)

my days r still like usual... packed with CO CO and more CO... so everyone! March 4th (sat), 730pm, Singapore Conference Hall... $10 per tix! buy more buy more! (ps: watashiwa is ticketing officer ok... hint hint)

will still be really busy for all the weeks until after the CO concert i guess.. haiz... jiayou jiayou! i'll be drowned with quizes, lab report, ticketing booth, school visits, CO, more ticketing work etc... so pls pardon mi... will try to go out after the concert ok!? =) hee... in the meantime... buy tickets from mi!!! wahahahaha...

yah... i'm really missing the usual ktv sessions and yummy food we all go out to eat together... (jus ate like siao last nite at chomp chomp followed by late nite mahjong... *yawnz*) meet out soon, darlings! *muacks*